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THE dark side

Bubbles3Senior Contributor

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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Bubbles3Senior Contributor

Re: the dark side

so this is people that arnt coping @Faith-and-Hope

Re: Am Not Coping

24m ago

Hello @greenpea. Yes it's hard to know if people are male or female on this forum - unless you have a distinct name.
But I'm all woman. Lol.
How have you been? We are expecting a big heatwave to hit Victoria on Saturday. What about where you are? & you @-Enigma-. I don't know which states everyone lives in.
A good sleep works miracles on my mental health. Descent sleep can make all the difference between just breathing and living.

20m ago

@utopia@-Enigma- Yes it will be a billion degrees where I live in NSW. Will definatley be staying inside and taking sleeping pills lol. I need my sleep.

19m ago

I am exactly the same as you @utopia how sleep effects my depression - i also find my anxiety very difficult to cope with if I experience a lack of it. I can take sleeping meds and still not sleep well sometimes - am currently working on ways to get a better sleep rountine to help me cope with all that is constantly thrown at me and the depression that can hit as a result. So I truly empathise with you as I know the struggle well. Hoping we both sleep well tonight. It's very hot and humid up here

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Unknown userMember

Re: the dark side

@Bubbles3
They are talking about how sleep affects depression and how heat affects sleep and how they are coping with the heat making it impossible to sleep.

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Bubbles3Senior Contributor

Re: the dark side

and another example

@Faith-and-Hope

Thanks @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @Bubbles3.
Just took us 4 hours and 21 minutes to get home from Melbourne.
Our train didn't have an engine. Then we kept stopping all the way home between stations - 10 minutes each time.
Finally home and exhausted. Tomorrow take the boy to the doctors to get his travel immunisations - then it's all done except for the packing.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor

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And that is the one not coping well byput holding it together as she makes preparations for her child to be away for a while .... because she doesn’t want them to see how much she is struggling ......

@Bubbles3

Go and tell them how pleased you are for the ones who are sleeping better if you like ..... I am sure they will appreciate hearing it from you.

And encourage the one who is making her child’s travel arrangements, struggling to hold it together when the train trip took four hours instead of her usual two, when all she wants is bed and meds ..... because hearing someone say, “Wow, that really sucked .... good on you for managing so well” means so much under those circumstances.

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Bubbles3Senior Contributor

Re: the dark side

ill just keep to myself from now on. no body is liking me especially from today anyway

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Unknown userMember

Re: the dark side

@Bubbles3, hon, from my experience (and that's not a lot tbh!!!) but relationships are give and take.
If you've had a bad day and got lots of support on here, come back on a good day and do the same in return.
You've also got to be thick skinned- none of us are professionals. We are just mentally ill people trying to muddle through life.
If you don't get the support you need, try giving it to another and see if they reciprocate at a later time.
If you don't understand something, just ask.
If you offend someone, or they offend you. Bring it up gently and talk it through.
I'm not trying to be condescending right now, I just want you to know that there is nothing about 'you' that I've seen would cause people to treat you badly, but you seem to feel that people are.
Perhaps it's all just communication issues????

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor

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I’m Liking you @Bubbles3 ..... but I am also visiting my Dad in the country, and tonight a neighbour dropped in unexpectedly .....

And it was dinner time for us ..... later than for you I’m guessing ..... usually around 7:30pm.

I think you said that really well @Former-Member ..... it is a give and take thing, and being gentle seems to work best.

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Unknown userMember

Re: the dark side

Hi @Bubbles3,

I know it can seem confusing, and as the forum has grown we have been working on a few new things - I have just posted an update here which may help clarify things. You are always welcome in all threads as is everyone in the forum.

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Unknown userMember

Re: the dark side

Hi @Bubbles3

I hope you are feeling okay and @Former-Member has helped clear things up for you. I know it is confusing as socialisation is common place there. If you are not coping with something you can post this and express this under the "not coping thread" for support at anytime as it is a public thread for all. It's just socialising is not appropriate to post on that thread. Hope this helps. Thinking of you. ❤️

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Bubbles3Senior Contributor

Re: the dark side

Dark days
Ahead of me
The pain wont stoo
My head wont stop spinning
The time has come
To end this pain
No more suffering
No more torture
No more of nothing
Jsut the way i want it to be
Pain free
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