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Something’s not right

THE dark side

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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Thankyou for talkinv with me @outlander. Its really helping

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see so you have done something, maybe tonight you could make a list of a few things you would like to get done @Bubbles3 i find the washing, vaccuming and the dishes are the worst things that get out of hand quickly so they could be a good starting point?

and no worries

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Yes maybe i will do that. Today started of bad coz i had no pain killers. But then ii got some and then mark came . It was just a really shit day @outlander. I focus on anything. My head was just spinning. I didnt know what i was doing.

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thats understandable @Bubbles3 we all ahve days like that but having a focus for tomorrow and having a visual list that you can tick off helps too. when i get overwhelmed with housework i break it down into steps so not jsut washing ill break it down to washing the clothes, folding the clothes then putting away as 3 separate steps, sometimes i only get to the part where i washa nd bring the dry clothes in without folding but at least its done and is a start and in between loads i fit smaller jobs like the dishes, vaccuming a room or mopping

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I know @outlander. I know what you mean. It all just depends what type of mood i m in when i wake up. I know that sounds silly but thats what happen with me. Its hard to explain. And then with the kids in the morning. OMG its so draining.

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Yeh i know @Bubbles3 can be hard to want to clean or feel like it at all. Kids are draining yes. Hopefully though tomorrow will be a better day for you

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I hope so to @outlander. Whats your plans for tomorrow. Actually iv got a dr app at 8.30 in the morning. I nearly forgot about that

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Taking the kids to school but not sur after that @Bubbles3
Yes best bot to forget that appt. Might be a good idea to tell him/her about the paib youve been in as well so they are aware of whats happening for you

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Ive got to head off soon @Bubbles3 its 11 oclock here and starting to get tired

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Yeah. Maybe . Are you taking about the pain killers @outlander
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