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Something’s not right

THE dark side

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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Re: THE dark side

Hi @Faith-and-Hope

Still feeling lonely
Dont know what to do
I have 3 app today
Anf then i have my nephew staying over tonight.
So going to be a full on day

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My smile hides my tears.
My laugh hides my screams.
It's been this way for years.
Things aren't as they seem.

I always seem so happy.
With not a care in the world.
But you should know sadly,
Many things go untold.

Nobody really knows me.
They only know my cover.
But I wish I could let it free.
Let them know what's under.

But instead I practice
My smiles in the mirror.
Then the next thing I do is
Make my fake laugh clearer.

What is wrong? You need help?
Is all they will ask.
So I have decided
To live behind a mask.

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Re: THE dark side

Trust your appointments are pisitive today @Bubbles3

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Re: THE dark side

And your nephew staying over is good .... guessing that the kids all get along okay ?

@Bubbles3

Hi @Determined. I have seen you floating around, and I know things are hard for you right now ...,, hang in there bro .....

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Hi @Bubbles3 ..... thinking of you .....

💜

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Hi @Bubbles3

Thinking of you and trust your day has been ok.

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Well iun my appointment today with the psychologist..... i dissociated again talking about the trauma. Then i felt like i was goinh to spew up. I felt really sick. So we went outside and i had a smoke and i felt much better. Came back down to earth.

On the way back i went into the shops and i dropped my brand new phone. So i have a smashed screen. Its only 4 fkinv days old. What a c......

And they wont let me get a new one

So now im reallyy upset and depressed.

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@Bubbles3 takes so much courage to delve into the trauma. I can imagine that after a session like that you might feel especially sensitive. Definatley not the ideal time to find out that your lap top is damaged! Sounds like a shit day. Be genetle with yourself tonight.

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Im trying @Former-Member but its hard.
I feel like running away and hiding. I dont want to be here

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I can hear hard it is. Not easy stuff, this bussiness of digging into the past, and then having to come back to the present without residual bad feelings still hanging around. Hang in there, you are doing so well. Give us a call if you need to talk things through.

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