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Something’s not right

THE dark side

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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Surrounded by people yet all alone
Trapped within this solitary zone
A world where chaos and hate overtake
Every bit of happiness that may try to escape
Laughter and smiles never seem to last
Because I am haunted by memories of my past
Running the distance with nowhere to go
These are the days of my life, a Broadway show
Screaming for help, does anyone hear
The demons of death are coming so near
Echoes in my head tormenting me all day long
Breaking the woman who was once very strong
What does serenity mean anyway
Is it the swag in my step or just the words I say
Deep rooted evil no time for a soul mate
Wondering why joy is always a day late
Suicide is the easy answer many times I've tried
Happiness seems to be the tears I have cried
Unable to distinguish what's real from what's fiction
Hope is an illusion, an optimist's prediction
What will it take to get me right
A visit from the devil on a lonely night
Angels prepare to battle and take a stand
To remind me of their holy land
When I want to give up, they push for me to be strong
In my head I hear their harmonious song
A tranquil state I now find myself
Dealing with the hand in which I was dealt
Good vs evil, what does it really mean
Am I dirty when I appear to be clean
Life is an illusion a constant mind trick on me
Who knows what my fate will be
Heaven and hell are both fair game
Will I succumb to peace or fall down in shame
Surrounded by people yet all alone
Trapped within this solitary zone


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Feeling alone again

Have no where to turn

Tbe demons are coming

Im scared

I feel lost

@Shaz51@BlueBay@Catcakes@Faith-and-Hope

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What do i do

I feel like SH

Haved SI

Dont know what to do

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Hi @Bubbles3

I'm sending you an email now to check in.

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Why is no one listening to

Im drowning and no one is there for me

Ill just drown even more

And hopefully never come back

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I'm sorry @bubbles I'm hearing you. I'm not good either. I'm sorry I can't help today. Not good for anyone today. Pls take care. Xx

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@Bubbles3

I have onky seen your last posts here now,

I am so sorry you are feeling that way.

Scared alone and lost is how my darling is feeling at the moment so I am in some ways seeing your pain right in front of me.

Im sorry if I am not much help at the moment but it is all just a bit real for me right now. And that in no way reflects on you, it is just where I am at the moment. I would hate to say something to upset you more because of how emotional I am.

I just really hope you can find the strength to work through this. Can you do something with the children to distract you. Would talking about your children help? I only ask as this is something that helps me. I cant talk about my children without having to smile when I foccus on what a joy they can be. They are far from Angeles but they are such a blessing.

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HI @Bubbles3 i think its quiet on the forums today for some reason. Sorry to read that things are really hard at the moment. The only good thing about time is that it does keep moving and nothing stays the same (double edged sword sometimes).
I havent read back very far on this thread but whats been happening?

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Everything has been happening

I have no patients with the kids

I hate myself right right now

I dont what to do with myself

Iv done everything around the house

I just hate me

I want to SH

@Former-Member

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