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Something’s not right

THE dark side

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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try a cold face washer on your forehead and lie down @Bubbles3 ? -- I find it helps me and one on your neck is good too @Faith-and-Hope

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Hi @Bubbles3,

You've managed these feelings and voices before - maybe some of your usual strategies will be helpful. You can also call the hospital if you need to. I've sent you an email but please also update us here as there are people here who care about you and want to know you're ok.

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im doing a little bit better now after taking my meds.the voices are still here but there much quieter @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope

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iv just taken my night meds ready for bed. i dont think i can eat tonight again. i just feel so drained from today. hope everyone has a good night and thank you to everyone how has helped me today @Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Former-Member@Former-Member

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sitting with you @Bubbles3

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Try to have something small to eat @Bubbles3 .... even a biscuit .... so you are in the habit of eating something to support your health.

Goodnight 💕

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i just have @Faith-and-Hope

thankyou

goodnight

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Well done @Bubbles3 ..... ❣️

Sleep well.

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im doing a new form of journaling and im doing a page about my dad and how much i hate him.

To have you last name
makes me ill
you make me so angry
I want to k......

I hate your voice
and the thought of you
you were never there
when I needed you!

You're inconsiderate
you're a lazy slob
how could you do
what you did to mom?

It's like you don't
even accept me
what kind of father
can you be?

You're stupid for thinking
that I'd forgive
what you did to me...to mum
how do you live?

Do you regret
I hardly doubt
I bet that I'm
the last thing you think about.

Don't lie to me
I know I'm right
I don't want you
in my sight!

Stay where you are
don't bother
you're lousy - I hate you
you're not my father!!

But that's okay
you see
because I don't need
your money!

You've forgotten
me before
go ahead...do it
some more!

LOSER! JERK! - I hate you
you're not my father
and guess what
I'm no longer
your daughter!

If this is who you really are, than I want you far...
If this is what a father is, than I never want one...
You abandon me in my time of need,
Left me with nothing to eat...
I had to survive on my own two feet...
All the money you had, and still you treated me so bad...
You're the worst dad, and that makes you so glad!!!
What comes around goes right around...
I hate when you yell, I hate that sound!!!
I looked for you and hell is what I found!
I should of been your princess with a crown
instead, you treated me like I was your clown..
Betrayed me and left me with a frown!!
Look at my tears, what about my fears?
You can't help me anymore, Don't even try, what for?
I hate what you have done to me!
I use to be so weak, I was afraid to ever speak...
Now I have found strength and I'm not afraid...
I'm not afraid of telling you to leave.
You are my dad just by name, because of you I will never be the same...
You are insane and that's how you will remain.
My mom is good, she's not the one to blame...
She had to play your roll as a dad...
You were never there, she was always so fair...

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it all coming back.

im going down hill

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