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Something’s not right

THE dark side

THE dark side

No one ever gets why I do what I do
I just wish that someone can see all my pain
That one person I wished to see it never did
And now I’m left here alone and confused

That one person who I trusted so much left
Now I can’t tell what’s wrong from right
She meant the world to me
She left so suddenly
It was so stupid
I’m left here to cry myself to sleep

Everyone tells me not to cry but they never know why I do
They wonder what’s behind my walls
What am I hiding from them?
I’m hiding everything from everyone

That is left unexplained
They always ask me why I’m so distant
I never tell them why
I’m afraid of the things that I have to hide
My problems are like an untouched checklist
Never to be solved
Never to be completed
It just sits there making me feel horrible

There so lucky
They don’t know my dark side
The side that they don’t see in me
The one person that will never show
They will never know

I was always left to fight my battles alone
I constantly struggle through everything
I thought I was going to get some soldiers along the way but no
No one to pick me up when I fall down
No one to really understand,
Who I truly am
Everyone has their own dark side
But what am I?

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My head wont stop spinning.
Im going to die

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Hi @Bubbles3, I can hear that you're struggling at the moment. Is there anything we can do to support you?

Please make sure you reach out to Lifeline or Suicide Callback Service if you are feeling at risk tonight.

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Now me and hubby are arguing because i have done something (that i cant say on here)
Now im even more steressed out. Feeling numb. Its about pRN s.

I cant do this anymore
I cant do any of this anymore.
I cant deal with it.

@Faith-and-Hope @Queenie @CheerBear @outlander @Former-Member

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💙 @Bubbles3 .....

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I dont what to do . I feel lost.

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@Bubbles3

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I to talk to some one please

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Hi @Bubbles3. I'm not going to be online for too long but can probably listen for a little while if you'd like to talk. Sorry you and your husband had an argument. When I'm feeling stressed the last thing I need is arguing but it seems to happen (or used to when it had more chances to) more when stress is high :S

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@CheerBear

Everything was fine but then i fk up and do something then he starts all over again. About the same sh*t. It just never ends. I know i fk up but i cant help myself with what i do. Then i go and do it and sh*t hit the fan.

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I was writing only today about how hard it can be for me to do things that I know probably aren't helpful, but have them be so hard to stop @Bubbles3. It's so frustrating I find. Adding in your husband's frustrations and it would be extra difficult 😞

Is he at home at the moment?

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