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Thinking about you all @ENKELI @DownMoreThanUp @Realness @heartathome @Shaz51

May God Bless You All.

And you too @tyme

I'm not sure if I shared, but last Sunday, we had ministry about Apostle Paul who as the Lord three times to remove the thorn in the flesh... yet the Lord didn't - for a reason. He wanted His power to be shown through Paul. God said, My strength is made perfect in weakness.

This reminds me of all my weaknesses. As much as i'd like God to take them away, I know whatever he has for me is for a reason.

I need to learn to wait.

@ENKELI @DownMoreThanUp @Realness @heartathome @Shaz51

May God strengthen you all. May His strength be made perfect in weakness, because his Grace is sufficient for you. 2 Corinthians 12:9

@tyme "This reminds me of all my weaknesses. As much as i'd like God to take them away, I know whatever he has for me is for a reason."

My friend know so well what you mean this was always my desire as well. Yet finding Jesus in our weakness and have Him take help us trade our weakness for his strength and our inability to His ability is so unbelievable awesome always praising His Name after that!

@ENKELI @Realness @heartathome @Shaz51

Paul also learned that lesson while in chains.

Did you know that apparently partly the Gospel spread so fast was because Paul had four guards of special ranking guarding him 24/7 at any one time - possibly up to 12 men a day? Yet many converted Paul's message, so the Emperor send to the ends of his kingdom to rid him of their message of Jesus. Which suited Jesus fine. Even Great Britain heard the Gospel this way. Or at least i have been told. Never researched this story or anything, but thought it a very interesting story of God's sovereignty at the time i was told.

i have had a really hard day in His loving embrace anyhow. A lot of paranoia, fear was unrelenting, and with massive peaks, and still has me slightly activated at 9pm, but almost ready for sleep i hope. i feel exhausted. Talk about weaknesses having become strong. For although not sure if i ever have had it such a volume poured over me as today but Jesus kept me with going in state even once, Deepest mourning the harm fear has caused in my life. Yet peace was not taken even the biggest freak throw at me. The best part was not just a state stuck in my mind trying to figure a way out, or worse overcome like in the past a paranoia freak quivering my state searing hot iron around my heart and mind, or fixated the terror, although plenty of trauma memories of precisely those kind of times not terrorised any longer. And also my body responses to note and the 'container' concept it represents my somatic techniques working in tandem with my faith in Jesus.

Such was very encouraging - Ezekiel 40-43 opened up to me like He had never before, going through it in prayer with Him like this. Specially Zadok's descendants as priests hit a new chord inside me not previous understood at theses of levels of worshipping Jesus saving me me in plain sight.

Greetings!👋

@tyme I love how God times things perfectly.

I have been struggling for a long time with not wanting to burden anyone when it came to my struggles. And though it has been trying and emotionally draining I see now where God is using my weakness and His strength.

Thank you for sharing. That you need to wait on the Lord too reminds me that I'm not a failure, I am simply struggling with impatience and learning to trust fully in God.

May the rest of your week be blessed xo

@DownMoreThanUp I thoroughly enjoyed reading your post. Not because you have been suffering (goodness no!) but because I can actually feel the strength of your faith and belief in your words. It made me feel lighter for want of a better word.

God bless my dear brother, I pray you are sleeping and that you wake in the morning refreshed xo

Proverbs 9: 10 NLT

“Fear of the Lord is the foundation of wisdom.

Knowledge of the Holy One results in good judgment.”

The phrase “fear of the Lord” here doesn’t mainly mean terror. It points more toward deep reverence, humility, and recognising God as greater than ourselves. The verse is saying that real wisdom begins when a person is willing to listen to God rather than relying only on their own understanding.

And the second line connects knowing God with growing in discernment and judgment — not just knowledge in the intellectual sense, but learning how to live wisely, compassionately, and truthfully. 🙏

@ENKELI @DownMoreThanUp @Realness @Shaz51 @tyme @Appleblossom

@ENKELI Thanks connecting. Appreciate your comment run short last night. almost lost it too.

@heartathome @tyme @Realness @Shaz51

Been rock bottom danger zone. Not facing others lovelessness but my own denying me Jesus as saviour my state down there. Every sparks dumping more misery. Ended in full alert!

AI was shocking. Kept denying me Revelation lived real life on the wrong side of His sword - where a hour rule sinful king - ended being hours trying to recover lost ground being dragged out of the word. It wanted me to stop pursuing truth when almost there, and even literally placed me back 30 minutes before at one stage.

My frustration - it flatting Jesus into modern day gibberish - not saying how He really is - but words without reality to them - merely descriptive instead of lived truth. Who cares if revelation 13 means i'm on the wrong side? My reality certainly was! Good riddance such lies ruling me numbered too. For i know chapter 14:13 knows the answer there, as does Rev 20:4-6. Get so tired when it tells me to go in state mode when needing to Dine The Word knocking on my door, for my reality is so terrible disconnected any good feelings and any truth but my misery.

Luckily Jesus used it for good in the end. And got me a big catch and much relief. However had to really tie it down the beast it serves then instead of it tying down me.

As if The Word would says it wrong using the language it does - and not from His Spirit - Word spoken in love not a my mind's denial of love.

Feeling much better tho now tho. But was an incredible low down state, also because not been using meds. and was short on sleep and still being hard on self denying myself relief and then AI keeping the word rather than bringing Him really escalated my state to extremes not lived for years.

please pray from me down here. For see more than ever that regulating my states has to be done all over again. And just Jesus and me. No more borrowing loved one's good life to regulate my moods with.

Painful realisation for sure. My wife and then meeting myself without mercy for myself having swallowed up all her mercy for me too.

Truly went down in flames meeting Jesus at the end - me suffering myself mercilessly for so long a pit as deep as the Abyss is.

Depression is the pits isn't?

I loved your post about God not removing Paul's thorn in the flesh , @tyme .

I also wonder why God has chosen this path for me.

Another verse I hold on to is Romans 8:28 ... all things work for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.

@DownMoreThanUp wow, it certainly a bumpy ride for you. Yes depression really is the pits. I am so glad that you can see the truth through AI. Sometimes I doubt what comes up and I appreciate that you have the same issue, it makes me feel like I make the right decision when I disagree.
I am always praying for you brother, you truly need lifting in prayer. Your faith is strong, but as the expression goes, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

Sometimes I wish we weren't fleshly beings!

I hope going off the meds helps and you're able to manage symptoms. God bless dear brother, thank you for being the person you are.