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i cycled out of my alter and the difference is amazing me. i didn't not feel ill waking up, have had no acid reflux or nausea and went for a wonderful beach walk at 7am this morning. The Sky blue, no wind and hardly any on the beach. And i had energy, we walked for around 50 minutes, even following a dried up creek for a bit to see where it would lead.
Jesus and i have been talking events over together ever since, even as He clarifies why things have been as they have been, and why things are now as they are now. Talk about having been divided within, also salvation wise.
So many things are becoming clear to me now and i have renewed hope for my future in and with our dear Lord in the immediate future. Also my Elder wrote me and promised me he be around as soon as he has some spare time for a chat.
He was very comforting and understanding and open to discuss the issues i had been having with legalism in our midst. For i been triggered on Sunday, and this event dragged me though the turbulent days that unfolded after that. While all i did was listen in on a sermon in our Sunday morning service online for my wife liked the sermon of that preacher from before.
Yet in his sermon he took believers in Church on a guilt trip, painting God's wrath on those not stopping their sins straight away, to be the fires of hell awaiting those who did not repent of their sins, for He hates sinners.
While faithfully mentioning the common sins religious/legalist/judgemental people have issues when other believers are stuck with such sins. And i recalled how often in my past, i had left Church to try and do ALL the things the pastor told us to do, but only made my struggle worse, and Jesus would NEVER come to my aid or help me overcome my sin.
This is why in my raging alter i had for so long denied Jesus as true, because they were not, so i did not think He was either. Yet i have been mourning Jesus all month missing out on Him in my raging alter, and all the suffering this caused me, and my loved ones lives for the last 30 years.
So hopefully things will pick up from here. Health physically as well. i cannot believe how much more energy i have compared to yesterday. Yesterday having to fix an single fitting on a pipe my wife broke, which took me all of ten minutes to do had me sick and shaking from exhaustion for hours afterwards, yet today i walked 3 miles without any difficulty not even heavy breathing.
Talk about amazing grace friends! And we all know Him like this! Can you see Family Jesus placed us miles ahead of those who are still blind to see the depth of God's grace and mercy in their lives.
So humbling to know that.........
(A song perfectly describing my cry for healing that fell on deaf ears for so long praying to the fraud of my religion and not The Truth of God's love as brought us by our Lord Jesus! The truth the author found, explained before the music starts, i found for myself as well.)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4tHEwWLMJM&list=RDY4tHEwWLMJM&start_radio=1