@AuntGlow @ENKELI @Realness @tyme @Appleblossom @heartathome
Thanks friends for dropping in. Mood wise i did well today. That is why we decided we go out. My mood changed taking meds yesterday afternoon down deepest, and has been good ever since. 👍
Sorry for not being around today. i've had a busy day. First thing this morning demanded had my computer demand i give it attention, and after that my wife and me went out for a river hike. We had a wonderful river walk, although it was hot for our doing at 31 C. Afterwards we had lunch together. A lovely pint o locally brewed beer with some chips and garlic bread.😍



Anyhow my progress. i have had enormous change of heart over the3 last 2 weeks. From being apart in spirit, ways and purpose, i'm uniting to any want, including worshiping The Lord.
Things have changed dramatically. For where i was once accused 24/7 depressed, i now find Jesus on the bottom of my 'bad' life, to be my life, to my utter amazement. To be honest more often than not i do not even call my past bad life bad any more. For in Jesus what was crooked becomes straight, and what was up becomes down, and amazing reality to live.
i'm beginning to veer away of understanding myself in alters, and more and more just me. That is the first major change.
The second major change is that underneath my rage was my hurting self. The self in me who always copped it, and where i suffered all my bad times. The self where i was rejected and despised. The self in me scorned, mocked and hated, even within myself by myself. Yet in Jesus innocent of wrong, and chosen by God to have Eternal life in and with Jesus. While my accuser and mockers burn my Victory, looking on gnashing their teeth at me, not able not to hate me. i know such life is doomed in me.
The third major change is no more psychosis, voice or hallucinations, nor anxiety! This has been such a welcome change in my life. i still getting used to. Ever since Jesus came and delivered me from the lies ruling, i have had no more psychotic episodes. Not even a little bit. Even without meds i have now seen. That is amazing! And has me thanking Jesus from the bottom of my heart for deliverance from evil!
Fourthly i have increased my sleep by a minimum of two hours a day, and have even made 6 hours in one sleep. And have been doing 'productive/meaningful' things again. Like fixing things and doing tiongs i have not been doing.
And finally but not at least lastly. My relationship with my wife and family has been improving as a consequence of my raging alter out of the way. My wife and me have had the most triggers between us with me in this alter. i have done the most wrongs to Jesus, myself and my loved ones in this alter. i have caused myself untold harm. Yet Jesus has had accepted in love and even thankfulness. Not only my wife, but also my older son, and now our older daughter are responding to the change. (the other two are not around.) Almost as if something which still upset them seeing me, no longer to upsets them seeing me, though neither know what has happened the last 5 months or so. A very interesting development indeed.
A lot more i could share. To many chances to retell really. My life has been upside down in every way imaginable.