Christian Chat

@Shaz51
Thank you MyShaz, I will take that photo of my Mums beautiful card, show it to you soon.
I got stuck in my mind about having "Our Strength Renewed Like The Eagles".
Not such a bad thing to repeat, hey? 😛

17 times sounds like ABBA Father is very adamant about, that fact- I will try & remember that fact-
"to be STRONG & of Good courage"

If I type that 17 times, I will feel like I am staying back after School, for being naughty.

I know I am naughty sometimes, hmmm? 😞
" to be of strong and of good courage "
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" to be of strong and of good courage "
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I lost count, can't you tell??? Duh 😞

@Shaz51
hahahahahahrr hahahahaha 😛

@Former-Member

I don't know a great deal about my ancestors. I know a few of the family names that go back into great grand parents. But know very little in all honesty. My father's family came from England on a boat in the sixties. They lived in public housing and were chose to come to Australia. Because there was three strapping young boys in the family. And they all established themselves on the west coast of South Australia and all descendants still live in the area. And as for my ancestors on my mother's side. I'm not sure.

I'm 140kgs because of medication. And 6'1 in height. Some stubble and 3' long hair. Slight knock knee. Big frame. Gawky.

I had an appointment with psych doc today. And I found it too be very frustrating. And got very little help or advice out of it. Had my criminal record used against me and basically got threatened with jail if I was to stop taking meds. It was something they said would be possible (scare tactic) . And they used my past against me as if it didn't happen for a logical, practical and rational reason that was justified. That I dealt with and moved on from. They tried placing all the solutions for the side effects of medication they are giving me back on my shoulders. I found it to be absolutely useless and an absolute waste of my time. However, from their prospective. It's what they get paid to do. Ironic hey?

I had a huge conversation with myself afterward. Which resulted In calling them professional pea brains. Who read from a text book. And are brain washed with money and incompetent. We are professional pea brains. We get paid. We collect our pay check every Friday. The problems and answers are in a text book. We diagnose. We medicate. And we manage.

Dramatize that! Hope it makes you laugh.

It was a big conversation. Found much completion and satisfaction from it.

I tried looking at it from both sides of the fence. I'm still winding down from it.

To be honest! I've got that much clear, logical, precise, practical, positive, insightful and rational stuff going on in my mind. It's disabling in it's own right. But of course. The enemy wants nothing to do with it and would prefer to call me mental ill. And see me medicated. Rather then deal with the problems they've helped caused. However again, it's all apart of the repentance and forgiveness attitude I need to apply to my life. To move forward.

Eude xx

@Former-Member

Sorry for venting to you. And sorry if I come across in the wrong way. But. It had to come out. Ya see. I process what's going on with other people I'm around who are in my life. Not always good results.

I analysis and write about the system. The forces of oppression in society. Religions. Philosophies. Life. And so on. And it's basically all negative stuff I'm coming up with. And not much can be done about it.

I seek praise from God. Not other people.

Eude

Hi Eude,
I slept for hours this afternoon, I needed it so much. I was worn out totally.
Wow you have a lot on your plate concerning your illness, MHP, & the MHS. I never had that, as I was Traumatised, from people (no naming) whom abused me. I was helped at that time by MHS, & have taken Meds ever since, for on going Anxiety disorder, & at times depression, but never have I wanted or thought about taking my own life, or self harm.
Then in saying that, I have never used Street, or Party Drugs. Only Doctor, & I don't drink Alcohol. I take prescribed Medication, which in my case has worked.
I have had the weight gain side of things, due to meds many years ago. When my mum was terminally ill, the Dr I used to see regularly suggested that I try a new, Antidepressant Tab that treats Chronic pain, without weight gain. It works excellent, & I have used it since.
I am so sorry you don't feel good about yourself. I don't feel good about myself either, but that's another story.
I'm not any of us do feel good about themselves, to be truthful. Its a part of modern Society it seems, to be unhappy with what we look like, & who we are.
Sad hey?
If you want to try & get fit, & maybe lose some weight, try riding a push bike, instead of driving.
I don't even have a car, so I walk or get Community Transport to take me.
With body damage like I have, walking can be a nightmare if I over do it. I love walking & keeping fit, but since all this damage from the accident, & major spinal Surgery, I am lucky not to be fully paralysed like the Dr said I most possibly would be. GOD preformed a Miracle on me last year.
You sound from your description to be a, strong very tall good looking man.
That's the way I see it, don't put yourself down because of your knees, my knees hurt 24/7 I have sort of gotten used to it now. I have plenty of pain tabs & all sorts of health products to try & make my life a little less painful.
I can just see you having a long talk to yourself, haha watch out, you might answer yourself back! 😛
Now go & tell me that you do, & I will have my foot in my mouth!! 😞
You did not tell me if you like what I posted for you.
The YouTube Movie versions of SAMPSON, & GIDEON?
I hope you like them?
Take Care Eude, talk again soon.

Bella xo 🙂 <><<

@eudemonism Hi eude, just a quick message to let you know that I am thinking of you. I hope your day is treating you well. I am just sitting here near my fan, feeling the cool air on my legs, as I type to you. My cat Teddy, is restricting my right elbow, as Teddy is a Persian Maine C..n cross, enormous. Maine C..n cats grow seriously BIG!Teddy is 1 of 4 baby boys I saved from being destroyed, 4 years ago. I still have 3, as I was begged to give one to, by, a person. I really did not want to, but gave in let Teddies twin brother go to a wonderful home. He is named Charlie, identical to my Teddy. I have had something to eat, drink, I love green tea. I will go have a shower very soon. If you turn up in Forum soon, & write to me, I may not be on line. I will check to see if your here after my shower. Looking Forward to talking/typing with you soon!

Your Friend Bella xxoo 🙂

I have a very serious unspoken prayer request here.
If you are reading this now, & feel in your heart to support me in prayer, I would be ever so grateful.
I need to make a decision, to day & if you can lift me up in prayer for GODS answer. I would appreciate it so very much!
The LORDS Will be done!
Amen & Amen! <><<

Thank you I love you!
Bella XO 🙂 <><

@Former-Member

Hi, hope your day goes well. And I hope the Holy Ghost is good to you. Is it hot where you are today? It's a tad warm here.

Those pets of yours sound cool. They sound like good company. I know of the Maine cats. And I actually thought about breeding them. Because of their value. But it was a pipe dream of getting ahead. Realistically I know it would be hard work.

I went for coffee with my support worker / peer support today. Got my aqua phase injection. Caught up with a friend and helped him out.. Mum and dad came around. Had a couple cups of cold water with them. Showed dad my fig tree and made him envious (he loves his figs (my fig tree is young but growing very fast where his is not) on my way to the clinic I picked up a friend on the side of the road and took them along with me.

Now just lazing around on the couch. Had cold shower. In me jocks. The dog is sleeping on the floor. And me cat is outside somewhere. My cat is really temperamental and is really quite small. Has her own personality and attitude. And does her own thing. Always in and out all day. Likes sleeping in the bush out the front.

Do you have support in your life? People you can rely on if need? Do you get lonely?

Everything that my life is about. And everything that my mental health issues are. Fluctuate. And it comes and goes in bouts of good and bad waves. When it's bad I blame something. (gets me nowhere) . And when it's good. I forget about the bad. So I'm constantly trying to make it good. Medication does help. But it's also a point of blame you when I'm feeling bad along with the whole story and everyone involved with medication.

Eude