Christian Chat

@heartathome - the purple star at the top of the page on my screen grab is what you tag to make the thread a favourite. Hope this helps 🙂

Hello @ENKELI,

Gah, yes - having to pay for home repairs would be so stressful.

How is your job hunt going this week?

And yes, I am sure knowing this is really grounding for you. 💛

Thanks @ENKELI I pressed the button, and it worked! It lit up. Now how do I find my favourite when I've lost the thread. Does that make any sense? 🤔

@ENKELI Thanks and so true what you say. We do have a choice.

Please do understand i do not see you as the guilty one making me sad. For it was not like that for me. i have enjoyed our relationship, here, and elsewhere, but that our relationship was suddenly straining, because of the work of the wicked, that did make me sad.

My struggle is with those 'evil voices,' The Wicked' ruling this planet their misery, always dividing us from one another, and ruling us through those who are in their pay\. It are The wicked, who have tormented me since i was little through my psychoses, with the devil at the helm ruling this world their lies, they are the ones making me sad.

For me sadness is not so bad, mourning Jesus, myself and others because of the wicked is fine with me, but raging at the wicked, as i have done for so long in my psychotic stages, that is where my triggers get touchy.

For i hate the woicked so much ever since i got to know them as the powers of the air around me, and not jut som delusional powers my sick mind came up with. Evil trying to drive me nuts with their crappy voices, always screaming loudest at me when i'm triggered seeing them at work inside me or around me, and getting upset about them doing that laughing at me.

i do take it to Jesus. And things have been improving a lot over the years. The last trigger i suffered did not have me rage at the wicked even once, but they did keep me awake all night, surrounding me with their filth. Yet holding onto the truth of Jesus' love, and not let them take my good life away, like they have so often done in the past, being triggered like that, is what had me win Victory in the end.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85I6HI2E4AA&list=RD85I6HI2E4AA&start_radio=1

@AuntGlow How are you going lovely? How's your Sunday treating you?

To be honest the job hunt is causing me anxiety. I have an appointment with my services provider tomorrow so I am sure they will tell me what I'm doing wrong ha ha. I am ashamed to say I have been out of work for over a year. This is the longest I have been out of work and I find myself comparing myself to my cousins who have all never been out of work. They also had 2 parents who were quite well off, I grew up with a single parent on a pension so I know that has made a difference. So I am anxious trying to find a job, anxious that I can't find one, and anxious that I bring shame on my family.

God tells me to Be Still, which I do but of course we don't live in perfection with the Lord this side of heaven so the anxiety gets to me.

Having said that, God just gave me the following verse. I love how He gives us so much encouragement!

@heartathome on the right of the page you should have My Favourites? That's where all your saved/favourite threads are.

I found them!! Right in front of me! THANK YOU @ENKELI You have a good way of explaining things and the photos helped me understand! 🤗💛

@heartathome anytime sweetie 😍

hoping you got to lose that game of fish @avant-garde

@DownMoreThanUp thank you for sharing your story, and what you have had to endure. It sounds really tough.

My life has been really really bad the past three years. I have lost almost all of my friends and now that I am not working I have lost my confidence.

My former friend threw scripture at me several times and it went hand in hand with some pretty brutal treatment of me.

I see you as a person who needs to get your point across and so am I. This post has taken me almost an hour to write as I have deleted and rewritten it a dozen times.

To keep it short I hope that we can move past all this and let it be. I don't like being at odds with people and I am so tired of having to defend myself. I can't end each day in tears because I am reminded of what happened 3 years ago, or of frustration.

I hope you're having a lovely day with your wife and daughter. You are very lucky to have a spouse and child, I was never blessed with either until my Godchildren and they were torn away from me. I wonder why God was so cruel but I also know He has His reasons and sometimes that means being cruel. Disagree all you like, it won't change my belief.