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@Former-Member

Thanks. That's really supportive xo

I been in a manic phase all afternoon. Because my auqa phase is nearly over. But have managed to get a few things done. It's not easy hey. Scary actually. Need to pull myself out of it before it gets to much.

I hear your true voice in your written words. Is it the same for you with others?

My whole body is sick because of your indignation.
There is no peace within my bones because of my sin.
For my errors loom over my head;
Like a heavy burden, they are too much for me to bear.

@eudemonism
How can my true words for you, be the same as for others?
You are not others, GOD only created 1 of you. I have only seriously, 2 close friends in Forum to be truthful. I am not sure how they feel about me, as a close friend?
I regard the 2 of them as close, because I share, & care about them very much. Yet, as I see it both have many close friends in Forum, so I do not push my way up their friend list. I just love them for who that GOD created them to be.
Both are female, you are my only male friend that talks to me in the way you do. If we continue our friendship the way it is now going with GOD the centre of it. I would be very excited to call you my best friend in Forum, as I think you may be as I am. Single, & waiting on GOD for HIS guidance, in all things?......Well, even if you're not, I am, as my way has never worked, & I am so tired, & just wanting a friend/friends that see my heart, & I have made so many mistakes in my life. I take responsibility for my wrong choices, not blaming anyone or GOD, its a learning thing. I can not handle anymore of the, abuse, stress, & mental torment, that comes with wrong choices in friends.
Anyway, in sharing all that with you Eude, you are the only person I am friends with in Forum, whom I have shared that with.
I suppose I must trust you, to tell you that, I have shared a couple of seriously personal, painful past traumatic, experiences last year I have lived through.
I shared with a beautiful lady, whom that, I call friend.
Another, I relate to her so surprisingly, she & I have & do still experience such similar pain & positives, she is adorable to me, & I love her very much!
I am getting to know you Eude, & after what you shred with me today, I do feel closer to you, as you are an, intelligent, loving, kind, fun, man. I am believe for your total healing & deliverance. Just as I am for my self, & the ones that I love!
Amen & Amen! <><

Love & BIG Hugs!

Bella, Your Friend! XXOO 🙂

@eudemonisom

shred=shared duh 😛

Eude
Can you add the- Bible reference for the passage you typed, please, & thanx! 🙂

@Former-Member

Hello again, I understand what you're saying. It all makes sense. And I can relate to the underlying message. I have come along way in my life. And in all honesty. It has been an absolute uphill battle. Always hoping, wishing and waiting for things to be different. But it always stays the same. Not that nothing hasn't changed. It's that the core and founding elements of my issues. Whether mental or psychical. Are still there and are still going strong. And trying to work them out so I can deal with them. Has been a tormented experience too say the least. And the causes of these issues are still out there in the history of my life. And I'm still faced with them every day.

I've had to build the best life I can. Based upon what I have avaliable to work with. It hasn't gotten any easier. I've just adapted, become desensitized, developed some resilience, and grown used of it.

I focus on the good stuff if I can. And build a structure of healthy, positive and enjoyable activities into each day. But it's a fine balance discontented, contented and peace of mind. Or feeling worthless and feeling there is a purpose.

Gotta put my tunnel vision on. And move toward everything good. Whenever I can. And yeah. Faith in Scripture does help.

Eude