@Captain24 I no longer have a best friend but my closest friend is the same, respects my faith but is not a believer. We met when we were 5 and just celebrated 50 years of friendship but I know I'm not her best friend. It kind of hurts but it's my fault because my ex best friend systematically cut me off from all of my other friends and even family.
I too don't have many friends. I think I probably have 3 good friends, one of them is Catholic and lives in the US so I haven't seen her for many years. We chat online and via phone mostly. The other 2 are always busy, my closest friend is involved in theatre so she always has plans, plus she socialises a lot with her other friends and never thinks to invite me along. She went out for dinner with a group of her friends for her birthday but didn't invite me. She used the excuse that she didn't think I could afford it but I would have liked to have at least been asked.
God will accept you, just like He has accepted me. I prayed for forgiveness many times but then God told me that I was forgiven and accepted because I asked Jesus into my hear over 20 years ago.
I was baptised as Presbyterian as a baby, then baptised in the Holy Spirit in 2005.
I understand that charismatic and Pentecostal churches can be disconcerting for a lot of people. I took mum to see Margaret Court preach - the church I was attending is part of her church Victory Life - and mum got really uncomfortable when Margaret started singing in tongues so I suggested we leave. I speak in tongues and have been given other gifts of the Spirit but I am also mindful that not everyone likes that type of service.
I was never comfortable with the idea of confessing to a Priest for example, as it wasn't something we as Protestants did. My dad's family are Catholic and my nana was devout. It brought her so much comfort.
I am appalled that you were treated that way in an Anglican church, but then I have heard other people say they were treated poorly as well. One of my team leaders when I was at Telstra was Anglican and her fiancé was a divorced Catholic. She wanted to get married in her Anglican church but the minister said she wasn't allowed to because she was marrying a divorced Catholic. She and her fiancé went to a Catholic church they had never attended before and the Priest was more than happy to marry them, the divorce wasn't a huge issue, nor was her being Anglican.
My prayer is that you get to a point of acceptance where you see God truly loves you no matter what 😍