@RazzleI empathise with you, I read about your journey in life, on the Thread that you started. That's why I so wanted to offer to you, our love, & our support, to you here, in CT.
I am not GOD, & I never try to be a GOD to anybody. I too have lived a long life of abuse, both physical, & mental abuse. I have nite mares, most nights, & I have the scares of the not too long ago past. Yet in amongst it all, the Spirit of The LORD is offering me, a new way, HIS LOVE, & a future. I am sick, & I am hurting, I am alone, & lost all things that I thought I could not live without. Yet, I have life, & the losses, I do live without, if I give up on what I know is real, then I am a true failure. I understand where you are coming from, sincerely, I do. I am not asking you to join in, & I will never bother you in any way.
I am holding out my hand to you, & offering you my friendship, & my care, & my love.
There are Spiritual things that none of us will ever understand, there will always be abuse, & pain, loss, & all other shocking things in this fallen world. Yet in amongst it all, there will always be, Faith, Hope, & Love!Those are the fruits of, GODS HOLY SPIRIT, GOD gives, & GOD takes, for the right reasons. I know 100% that GOD (ABBA Father) is real) In the midst of my suffering many years ago,
I held up my hands to GOD, while sitting on my bed, all traumatised, broken, & crying.
I called out loud to GOD!! & I said to HIM- GOD!! if YOU Love me!!
give me a word from YOUR BIBLE!!!
Then, I heard HIM say- Romans 8 v 15, I did not know hardly any of, The Bible, so I stopped crying, I grabbed the Bible & I read -
ROMANS 8 v 15
For I, did not give you a spirit of bondage, again to fear. I gave you, The SPIRIT of Adoption, to cry, ABBA FATHER!!
I was stunned, & could not cry anymore, now since that day, GOD has been doing all sorts of things in my life, even Miracles. I am no one special in this world, & I too have lost loved ones, & my respect, & many things that are too long a list to name all.
GOD is there, HE cares, & HE will help you, me, & all, but we must remember, that this world is broken, & can be very evil. GOD has give all free will, in the world. The choices are always ours, Faith is the opposite of Fear. I choose Faith, & I still have good, & bad days. In the BIG picture of life, each day that we are here is a gift from GOD, the way I see it, now. No one, can steal us of the love in our hearts, unless we choose to give it up. I am sick of being bitter, broken in Spirit, & hurting myself. That's what the abusers wanted for us. I am not going to be like them, & continue what they started. I would rather have FAITH in ABBA Father, & HIS promises.
GOD knows & see's the BIG Picture, & why the losses, HE grieves with us. When we forgive (not agree with) then the chains are broken, & we are no longer a captive to all that abuse, & loss, & life becomes livable.
I do not have all the answers, but I do trust in GODS wisdom, in my life!
I will stop here, as I have a headache & I do hope what I shared maybe of value to you, no pressure, just my love to you!
GOD BLESS!
Bella xo 🙂 <><<
