ABBA Father,
I know that You are real, I believe 100% that You care about me. You have shown me many times in my life how much You care, by the way things have just ended up working out for me, even tho I have had to go through so many horrific experiences, & shocking pain, & loneliness, of such a terrible frightening extent FATHER.
Abandonment by my Siblings, & lack of any kind of care from them, & still do. Lack of finances, & no transport. Serious, sickness, & health issues, that I struggle with, on a daily basis here,by myself.
I look around where I live LORD, & I seem to be the only one living on my own. I have 2 neighbours whom talk to me. On either side, of this house that I rent, off The Government. None of them go out of their way to see if I need anything, or help in any way. Yet, they are families, & have so much support from others.
I seem to be the lost sheep, so to speak LORD, what am I doing wrong, why am I so isolated with so many people all around me? I am very caring, & loving, I love YOU LORD with all my heart, people tell me I am good to them, at times. I love to give, when I feel led to. I do not have much money to give, unless it's a small amount to help a charity. I love the animals, I love the children, I love nature of all kinds, I have worked hard all my life LORD, as YOU already know.
I can not get on top of all this body pain, & health issues, it's too much for me LORD.
I'm not complaining, I'm trying to work, out who I am, & what I can do, to make my life more welcome, & open to friendship. I must be missing something, that I can do, or maybe I'm not being grateful enough LORD for what I do have. Maybe life isn't meant to be lived with people, or even one person, that YOU LORD have chosen, & sent for me, to love, & to cherish, like I know, & have been believing, that YOU, will?
I am so tired LORD, & I am worn out waiting, yet, I will not give in to self pity, or crying.
I am thankful for my Fur Babies, they are a lot of work, & they do give me so much love. I can afford them, but it does take most of the money that I am blessed to receive, to care for them.
I would not give them up, to have a social life instead, & most people would not love them, like I do. I'm praying to YOU LORD like this, & in CT, as I need to see my prayer, as I may see myself in a different way by doing this. My life is at times very scary in many ways. The way I get through each day is to stop looking at it all, & just live it as it comes. But, every day it is the same, like a broken record, will I just fade away in time, or can I do something now LORD before it's too late to make any change? I am thinking too much, & good, or bad this is my life.
YOUR Will be done ABBA Father in my life always!
In JESUS MIGHTY name!
Amen & Amen! <><< XO
XOXOXO
