ChrisSenior Contributor
Crisis in the middle of the night
Ive been going down hill for the last few weeks. There doesnt seem to be any rhyme or reason for it. No more than usual hapening. Just feeling worn out and tired of the constant ongoing struggle. I saw my psychologist on Thursday and she remarked that it was evendent i really didnt want to be there. She was right. But there wasnt anything that was causing it. I guess i was just feeling withdrawn. Friday i saw my psychiatrist and i was very upfront with her. She did try to help me with putting a plan together.
Last night i just felt exhusted and tired of the constant struggle. I tossed and turned then i started cry......sobbing into a pillow. Lasted over an hour I felt completely overwhelmed and out of control. I tried to ring the mental health crisis line, but was kept on hold. It all felt too much. I really dont know how i got through it. I ended up hanging up. The distress....I didnt know what to do. I was not feeling suicidal. Just so distreesed that i cant do this anymore. Left me feeling exhausted. Still feel flat. And aprehensive about tonight. Being alone.. Needing some kind of comfort. The last time i was like this i was in hospital. Dont want to go back there. Just lost.
