Emotional missing my sons and home star Adelaide.

Hi all I haven't slept for over 24hrs. My sons are heavy in my heart, minimum contact 2 hrs supervised for 7 years and one year on Adelaide for mania physchosis. I had to fly to Adelaide because Bundy emergency and mental health workers wouldn't treat me and I was seeing demon eyes on some nurses rather than what they really looked like. So instead they shove me in watchvhouse cell overnight and charge me as trespassing and public nuisance they should of pee tested me realised I was ill not on drugs, but no my family had to help me fly safely to Adelaide to get me off the streets of BUNDABERG. My house was tapped I thought and all water was toxic do I didn't shower for over a month, I was definately unwell. Bit no I get treated like a criminal and charged. When I went to Adelaide they said I had mania physchosis and when that ended went dead even worse than depression. So I had to stay and do that if I wanted to return to my dons in BUNDABERG. Do shock treatment 12 times. My dad said he reckoned it snapped me back to life still not great but better to go to QLD. I only packed a day back pac. Cos I thought it was end days and Jesus was coming and I was a prophet. I hallucinated went back to childhood trauma which I've done each two main times it was in high mania. Anyway all I want to do is get my sons and is fly home for their next 8 years. That's fair he has had them solely for that long. Money talks and bullshit walks here in Bundy and I was on DSP and single parent payment.,and isolated. His networks are high high up. And his plan to get the kids, oh it's too much I have to stop. Breathe and say well that's my longing is to be a mum. Not a 2 hr a fortnight supervised mum and that's my only input. What about my parents and them sharing good values of our side of family. It's stigma in family law courts QLD it's 30 years behind. And networks and ex coppers being corrupt politicians. More so. Anyways once I sleep I'll heal for anotha day hopefully not in my ongoing grief and abuse through my sons will end one day. Help in QLD countless of good mums and dads are having their children taken. Now they do it to mental illness sufferers who are parents. I got cleared by MH and said I was a good mum and my mental illness didn't affect my parenting in black and white. But no docs chose our abuser over someone with 4 diagnosis. BPD bipolar 1 adult add and ptsd after I lost the boys and shared my years with my ex the ptsd went to ptsd complex. Anyway vourts used the BPD against me and so did my ex and his lies and act got him what he wanted. Full control. Anyway that's a bit of my mental illness story