I over heard people talking and it make me very distressed and upset but not because of the flashbacks. They were treating suicide as a joke. One person said they knew someone who commited suicide and that the way they are now they shouldve done a better job- as in better attempt. And then the other one said 'ahh well, they were pretty stupid werent they, thatll teach them' thats all I could here but they were treating it as a joke

Im not proud of it but I have attempted suicide and its not laughing matter. In that headspace you dont think to get help, you think 'I want to end the suffering'

im still feeling pretty upset and controlling flashbacks so I can tell its going to be a rough night.

For the moment im ok. Well to the best of my ability anyway beside hurting inside and having to limit toilet breaks until things on the inside heal abit more which is a pain but ill live, im feeling really embarrassed at the whole event though but overwhelmed by everything else at the same time.