I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

thank you @Former-Member@Owlunar@utopia ive been trying to think of what to say.

thanks @Former-Member havent moved off the lounge yet.

@Owlunarthanks yeah i care for my sisters despite how annoying they are. im sorry ive made you sad, this here is my only release. my heart is heavy and i just feel like im in such a dark place. im trying to turn it around and take in both Zoe and Phoneix_rising suggestions to stop thinking the way that i am but i just cant so im using the advice of act not react. its some where on here but its simple enough to follow. dont read something then jsut write full or emotions, take the time away to think then write.

@utopiai hardly want to see my psych. she already thinks im not trying hard enough. ive been reading a book and was hoping that would help and when i go to bed i actually imagine my fourm family with me. ive often got Niqueeta1 and Dec watching over so i imagine that and Nell and Sans are often beside me so i imagine that. that helps get to sleep but after that it seems my brain goes haywire. ive been writing down my dreams both good and bad. havent had a good one for as long as i can remember but ive written them down since the start of the yr when i can rememeber to esp recently.

i guess atm a dark place i am and fighting it isnt helping me so i may as well stay here until i get out of it. i jsut dont know what else to try to get out of it and lack of sleep isnt helping...

thank you everyone

ohhhh @outlander, sitting with you and giving you are big hug

I am here for you @outlander, when ever you feel comfortable when you want to talk , you can do one at a time

I am wondering if the nightime to work out options for a few things is not s good time for you @outlander.

It is often better to work such things out when you have a clearer head and are more grounded. Night times do not seem the best time for you for these. Is this something that can be looked at now? I am around for a little bit atm.