I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

@outlanderwell still in my pj's so going good I would say. Kids are entertaining themselves which is good. Watching bbt but what is new!!

How is your movie day going?

lol well its going as planned then @Former-Member pj day sounds good. lol of course, what else would you watch besides the vets 😉

we are almost finished the second toy story then itll be number 3. just took the youngest one out and got some lunch

@outlanderToy story 3 is sad when he gives his toys away!!

Think I need to get myself some breaky first before I think about lunch!!

I am glad you are not doing much today and having a rest day. It will do you good or do you still have to go into work today?

im not really watching it @Former-Member its just in the background. it might be sad when he gives them away but its made another child very happy. part 2 is quite sad too though.

well best get some brekky first then hey! i got a warning from my boss a few days ago that if i keep taking time off she will find someone else to replace me as she wants someone reliable. ill be going in today. its been busy these holidays. more than i expected. more than she expected i think but my boss has been on holidays the past 2 weeks. she comes back next week. but i can rest until then. prob go around 4ish and hope im back before dark, as mums as work so i cant go till she gets back

@outlanderwell least if you go about 4ish than it will be cooler, or is it cool there anyway?

It's not as if you are taking time off work for no reason.

its muggy @Former-Member its ok when the breeze comes up but thats not too often so 4pm will be ok.

yeah i know, guess im not doing a good enough job in that either. prob wont have my job by next yr. im srprised they are still letting me be a carer tbh

@outlanderby the sound of it you are doing a good job, but I am assuming your employer does not know the extent of your mh issues either.

You are doing a great job as a carer. It is super hard work hun, I know how it feels.

no they dont. they know i was in hopsital the first time for a breakdown @Former-Member she still hired me after that. i have to keep alot quiet cause if im not ok to other people then they might tell centrelink and if it goes on record itll make it very hard to get another job or do anything

@outlanderyea understand hun. Bit stuck atm.

yep pretty much @Former-Member and if i was to give it up they would put me on the dull looking for work. id rather pretend im ok and do what i can with work even if its just the caring job and make sure i do more self care then to go back on 200 a week and everyone knows how skrewed up i am.