I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

@Owlunar Oh Dec I am sorry to hear that you are feeling so sad today. I don't understand quite what is going on but to see you so sad is not good at all. I wish I could put a smile on that lovely face of yours and make you feel even a tiny bit better. xx

Hi @Bunniekins

Thanks so much for your kind message

I can't write about what is making me feel sad right now because it is not my business - it's my rellies business and I read about it on the internet and it is really hard stuff

Your message has eased my heart a little though - knowing people care - and maybe a smile will appear as the day wears on a little

And I am concerned that a favourite rellie of mine who is frail and aged and really ill might die and my extended family will no doubt tell my toxic sister but my sister doesn't tell me anything - so yes - the thought of this person dying without my seeing them again and no one telling me is something I am trying to leave with God - but that's really hard atm - I will be really glad when I can see them again

Dec

@Owlunar I am a firm believer in an afterlife with a non judgemental, caring spiritual being. I am sure you will see your relie again even if it is not before he/she passes over. xx

@outlanderhope you got some sleep last night hun, I know you were on here pretty late. How are you feeling today?

hugs @Owlunar i knows it a really tough time for you too

ive been trying my best to keep up with your thread too, and yes i do care

about an hour @Former-Member not a good one either when i woke up i had the sheets off my bed and my quilt cover was upside down and back to front which tells me even when i was asleep it was rough even if i dont remember it 😞

i just got back from my backyard i nearly got bitten by a redbelly snake. we are adjoining to a back paddock but its being cleared for house development and i walked out with no shoes and didnt see it and dropped my clothes basket so damn quick basically landing on it and scurried backwards up the backsteps calling out for pop. its gone next door now but getting all the backyard cleaned up when mums bf gets home.

my mental health atm is so bad, ive had plans come back into my head and im getting worried i wont be able to manage them anymore and i have to esp getting this close to xmas

@Bunniekinsi told my pop if my uncle stays itll have to be on the lounge. after tryingt o move myself and mum there is fk all room anywhere and no where to put anything. he only wants short stay until after xmas so should be a problem applying for house in the meantime and styaing on our lounge for a short time until i get get other arrangements done.

@outlander Was he happy with that?

@outlandersorry to hear that hun, an hour is no where near enough sleep.

We have land around us too, so understand about the need to be careful of snales.

I am concerned for you hun and how much you are going through. Is there anyone else you can link in with support. You should have a local mental health team that service an area. Have you contacted them at all? They can even have someone come out to your house. Sorry if you have answered this before, my brain isn't exaclty in peak working mode!

not sure @Bunniekins but thats the only options atm

the gps wont give me anything else for it either. i can barely get them to give me the mood stablisier i was suppose to get about a month ago now. no one is communicating. @Former-Member ive got to keep on them all the time. ive given up doing that. i cant be bothered trying anymore. whatever happens to me is going to happen anyway. im walking bad luck. the MH team cant offer anymore support than what i already have apparently. ispoke to them a little while ago and they gave me a few sessions with them plus the personality assessment. but thats all. they say call a helpline.