I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

Can understand,my late father always loved Xmas ,made Xmas because of his childhood.I can't think of anything myself because I no longer care,and can't afford anything which is adding to my giving up as it causes great emotional pain.

@Former-Member no reason to leave. Taking a break might help.. i have done similar in the past because it can become a bit too much to handle. Take care of yourself please 🙂

Thanks @MDT,not physically well either but I'm tired and defeated.Very.

Hows the iron transfusion going @Former-Member ?
Are they helping at all?
Might be worth seeing your gp for at least the physical stuff ❤❤

I have a blood test later this week to check/follow up @outlander,but I don't think the infusion a few weeks ago was enough,had sore muscles and sore arm from washing ceiling.Did 15 km walk this morning but struggled,tired and nauseated and sore.Plus stressed about dealing with Centrelink over carers claim tomorrow or next day...don't want to be in this position .Think I'm just sick from stress,and feel my life is over.Im powerless and have no control over my life.I think I have to log off for a while,been up since 4 ,couldn't sleep for distress.

Please take care of yourself @Former-Member and slow down! Take things easy. Gentle strolls. Watch a movie or something for a while to restore some energy. Let your creative juices flow onto something creative and things that require only a small amount of energy
Take care and look after yourself. Sending hugs and hugs ❤❤

@TAB there is nothing wrong with kmart! Love that shop i often go there to buy one item and come out with a trolley load whoops!

Umm I can't afford anything either really @Former-Member think it's nearly maxed out card re any purchases to make self feel better. Been telling self all year was going to get ontop of debt, but not enough discipline ok or income re ad hoc nature of work. So prob decision time yet again re stay/go somewhere else to get more work.
Yes, first xmas without mother here @Former-Member

Same and agree @outlander just wish they wouldn't keep changing product range when find something I like keeps chopping and changing. Last pair of jeans from there had coin po ket near half size actual pocket and zip from something 4 sizes smaller lol target used to be good. Went and bought same jeans for years til they changed lol