I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

Hey @outlander

It seems like something happened this morning to trigger all these thoughts, can you maybe talk us through that, it might help you to work through why you are feeling the way you are currently?

Lunar 🙂

@Former-Memberit is everything.

i have lost everyone i love and care about. my horse got put down earlier this year. why does everything good have to be taken away. im sick of being sick. i really am. its one thing after another after another. medications after medications, surguries, test after test after test, i have had over 250 appointments on this year alone and still counting because xmas is the hardest part of all.

the psychiatrist doesnt know what else to do with me. shes added in another 2 medications but she said i dont think they will work but its worth a go. she keeps harping on about how overweight i am yet im doing everything in my power that i can to loose it including going off an antidepressant.

my gp doesnt know what else to do with me either and my psychologist doesnt know how to help.

i am out of options. i havent got any left.

and yesterday through all the commotion going on, i also found out that my first real bf turned out to be a joke. it was a dare.

what else am i suppose to do.

Hi @outlander

I read through your thread since I posted yesterday and I am wondering what the worst part of all these tangled issues is - what I mean is that you are very stressed and I am not really much use to anyone today but thing

The bottom line is I care about myself and so - just sweating it out today

So back to my question - with all the is happening right now what is the worst part?

There have been times in my past when I have been in such a state I have had trouble working my own worst part, second worst part - etc - and I certainly identify with the confusion you must be feeling with all of this

I understand that you feel desperate and lost - so true - and for many of us Christmas has a sense of dread around it - I am caught in that place right now so I totally understand that - and through years I have learned that nothing from the past can hurt me now -

It takes time to get here and I am not feeling crash hot today - in spite of the crash-hot weather

Never-the-less I do care and even when I am not on-line I think about you and I care

Dec

hi @Owlunar

theres alot going on. i cant pick just the one. it is everything. there are no more options. im tired of fighting so im just sitting for now.

i know your doing it hard too, im sorry you are, lets hope the new year brings more light for everyone hey

will check out your thread later. i know youve got some good company on their atm

what did happen this morning @outlander, that changed everything my little sister xx