outlanderSenior Contributor
I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
I dont know how much longer i can keep going on like this anymore. I feel completely defeated right about now
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I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
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outlanderSenior Contributor
Re: I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
No not really @Sans911
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@outlander - you don't know how to have fun??! BS sister. That's so untrue.
And while we aren't 'real' to you, isn't this great? You are Real, we have coffee and meals together, we share the good times and bad, and you never, ever know if we will meet. The world works in beautiful ways. I understand having real friends is nice, but it's hard work sometimes, hence I have no friends nearby me that I go out with. I lost a number of friends when my MI come to light.
Perhaps you have similar characteristics to your mother that scare her, and only way to deal with that is unfortunately take it out on you.
Growing up, I was the greatest source of frustration to my mother. Everything I did aggravated her, and I learnt from an early age that I could aggravate her further if I did exactly what she didn't want me to do.
She hated me at those ages with a passion. She constantly complained to the welfare how wilful and difficult I was, and mostly to her. Now I still do things that aggravate her, but it's more unintentional. And I tell her at times, her reaction is inappropriate and that I won't tolerate her response {or lack of response}. If she does not like it, too bad.
Perhaps when life has settled a little, friends will be there. You don't know what the future holds @outlander. None of us do. Surely it has to be better than this
And while we aren't 'real' to you, isn't this great? You are Real, we have coffee and meals together, we share the good times and bad, and you never, ever know if we will meet. The world works in beautiful ways. I understand having real friends is nice, but it's hard work sometimes, hence I have no friends nearby me that I go out with. I lost a number of friends when my MI come to light.
Perhaps you have similar characteristics to your mother that scare her, and only way to deal with that is unfortunately take it out on you.
Growing up, I was the greatest source of frustration to my mother. Everything I did aggravated her, and I learnt from an early age that I could aggravate her further if I did exactly what she didn't want me to do.
She hated me at those ages with a passion. She constantly complained to the welfare how wilful and difficult I was, and mostly to her. Now I still do things that aggravate her, but it's more unintentional. And I tell her at times, her reaction is inappropriate and that I won't tolerate her response {or lack of response}. If she does not like it, too bad.
Perhaps when life has settled a little, friends will be there. You don't know what the future holds @outlander. None of us do. Surely it has to be better than this
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@outlander
Sans spoke about fact. Has your mother actually said she hates you or is that just how you feel?
I know you are not in a great headspace atm and are being really hard on yourself. it is what we all do.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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oh but you are real @Sans911 i truly hope i get to meet some of you one day. i really do!
my mother and i are actually opposite. the only thing we have in common is our physical characterisitcs
ive been told by soo many people that i am nothing like my other but quite the opposite lol.
i hope things will change for the better sis. i do hope so.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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no she hasnt said that @Former-Member im waiting for the day she admits it. it wont even shock me at that point itll jsut be confirming what ive always thought
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Unknown userMember
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@outlander @Sans911
Sorry to leave you both but I am logging off for awhile. Nothing you two have done, just not in a great headspace at the moment and still having side effects to these meds. Will probably be back on later on. Take care both of you 
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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take care sis @Former-Member
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@outlander I understand my angel. See you later.
Are you going too @Former-Member?
Are you going too @Former-Member?
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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im not going anywhere yet @Sans911
trying to sort my stupid thoughts out.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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@Sans911i feel lost. like somethings not right in my life besides the obvious problems are but it feels deeper.
