outlanderSenior Contributor
I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
I dont know how much longer i can keep going on like this anymore. I feel completely defeated right about now
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I dont know how much longer i can go on like this
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Hi @Sans911 how are you?
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member not great. I'm feeling quite low. So is pretty high right now. I've just had to go to get food from a charity for the first time in nearly 20 off years. I have nothing until Monday as my flatmate thought she pit rent & bill in the bank and forgot to press submit. I now have to wait until Monday. Feeling really humiliated right. I think things could be much worse.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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*So=SI
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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ive got alot going on in my head i cant sort it out.
i told someone my story with the dog incident- the full story and its really triggered me a heap. im struggling with it all. its brought up all the flashback and emotions esp the feelings of being worthless and being a bad sister and i couldnt protect her, and that i didnt trust any instincts of mine, and im a looser, a pathetic human being, and the treatment after that, and i know everyone hates me for it, all the reasons im to blame for it and and the hospitalisation (my first one) becasue thats part of the reason i made an attempt earlier this yr and everything
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@Sans911so sorry to hear this hun. Can understand that would make you feel quite low. This flatmate of yours doesn't seem to care a lot about what you are going through or your circumstances. Can she come give you the money instead?
There is no need to feel humiliated, I've been there before and plenty of other people have too. That is what it is for, to help us out when we need that help. 
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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@Sans911we have been in that position ourselves. it is humilating however they arent judging you and neither are we
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@outlanderwell that was very brave of you to tell someone, however I am not surprised it has triggered everything and that you are struggling. I can tell you that it wasn't your fault, you are not pathetic or worthless but I am not sure whether you would believe me or not, and it is hard to see past these things when we are heightened.
I hope you do know that none of what you have witten is true and that you feel this way becasue you are upset and triggered. So what can you do to calm yourself down and make those huge feelings start to settle? I am sitting with you sis through this
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member she is working today, and doesn't have a car. I'm more than 30mins from home. It's alright, just another that thing makes me feel crappy and is pushing my SI feelings very, very high. I dare not go anywhere near my car today.
@outlander - is this same person still with you hun? Would writing it down, even bullet form might help. It sounds like there's massive amounts of blame there that you didn't do enough. I really think it might help if you broke this story down peice by be peice, examine every bit of it. Really look at the parts you had no control over. And maybe you need to look at why do you continue to punish yourself so harshly? What would any other person in this situation be like? How would they react?
@outlander - is this same person still with you hun? Would writing it down, even bullet form might help. It sounds like there's massive amounts of blame there that you didn't do enough. I really think it might help if you broke this story down peice by be peice, examine every bit of it. Really look at the parts you had no control over. And maybe you need to look at why do you continue to punish yourself so harshly? What would any other person in this situation be like? How would they react?
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@Sans911Know doubt it will push your SI feelings higher. Is there someone there you can talk to about how your are feeling? Yes please, do not go in your car. Sitting with you and super big hugs.
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@outlander I know I am judging myself, but it's still really hurtful.
The other thing with your post above @outlander is that you say people people hate you, you are the reasons it happened. Did anyone actually come right and say to you that were responsible for this incident, or is that your own perceptions? I learnt an important skill in DBT about 'checking the facts'. It means did you ask someone if that was the truth or is that what YOU think is the truth? So, often when we really have the truth, can we state yes, thats what really happened or what was said or no, it's not the truth.
The other thing with your post above @outlander is that you say people people hate you, you are the reasons it happened. Did anyone actually come right and say to you that were responsible for this incident, or is that your own perceptions? I learnt an important skill in DBT about 'checking the facts'. It means did you ask someone if that was the truth or is that what YOU think is the truth? So, often when we really have the truth, can we state yes, thats what really happened or what was said or no, it's not the truth.
