I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

@Phoenix_Rising

i know to others looking in the 15 yr old should be able to look after the youngest sister but its also a major cause of my anxiety. a major trigger.

they are moving 20 minutes away but they arent moving schools as they are really happy where they are.

so the current arrangement will be im there of a morning and taking them to school but when mum is off or her bf is off i wont have to go there in the am and mum also lets me know her bigger days in advance and the other afternoons, i might only have to pick them up and have them for a little while before taking them home or picking them up and taking them to their house.

its mostly the travels the reason ill still be there and also becasue of the area. my middle sister isnt really that responsible either and i wouldnt want to put those responsibilities onto he, as thats how it all started for me as well

hello my Niqua

their place is 20 minutes away, mum starts at 630 so will leave there around 6ish so ill head out there around about that time as well take them to school and then go about my day.

yes my own room! and privacy! and space!

ive got to go through the storage place we have to see what we had from our old house that couldnt fit here. i know both of my sisters rooms are pretty much set up.

ive been looking at furniture though today and ive discovered after pay so that could work to my advantage as well. nah my room is bigger, the other one will prob become my gym or a spare room sort of thing. thats the last thing on the list though. will get my own room arranged.

lots of love and hugs to you too Niqua

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yes! @CheerBear ill be able to have drawers that are mine and wont have to shove everything in the boot of my car in the secret compartment. i found a stash spot under the carpet but would know what there so thats been my stash spot.

tonight it actually popped into my mind the same thing cause mum came out and said oh i had this in your drawer

i didnt even know it was there because ive given up putting things away, my clothes are in basket near my cupboard and while it drives me nuts its too much effort to put them away to have to pull them all out again in a small space.

i think ill make my room purple and blue as a theme

lol i fond one of my old books a few days ago and thought of that idea @CheerBear funnt that!

hmm the thing about being a country chick is i have things in my car that i have for emergencies such as pocket kni-ves and ended up incising the back corner of the carpet between the plastic covering my spare wheel and the top layer of carpet- whoops!

lol i can see you planning that pin board right now- lots of ideas swilring around i can see them from here 😉

i wanted to get my purple rose painting from a shop i found so could prob end up doing that and i also have a blue and purple dreamcatcher plus they are my fave colours

im loving afterpay atm though @CheerBear ive found somewhere that stocks furniture and does it.

ok so as i was flicking through google for rose pictures. this rose came up and ive decided to get it put onto a canvas. reason being this rose reminds me of my forum family so i can put it next to me and ill always have my forum family in sight. i really hope it comes out ok on canvas though.

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