Night Shift

Hi again @Kurra

Yes - I do have traumatic memories - my son died in Juvenile Detention 30 years ago - it was a suicide and his anniversary has just past - one reason I went to Canberra for a few days - but run as I will - the anniversary will catch up with me - I had an horrific migraine last Monday and my doctor gave me an injection for that - very much needed

Also - my mother died last year and at her funeral - hearing everyone say wonderful things about her brought back repressed memories of abuse - it was terrible - I knew I had be badly hit and knocked around but the full thing hit me - and those memories were terrible but they have passed - she can't hurt me any more now and I have the freedom to do as I choose and I forgive her - understanding her hard life and knowing that what she did was criminal - I released her in that brief moment before she left her still breathing body - I had the faith and it was my moment - no one else noticed - her spirit was there and then it was gone.

You have terrible memories of your own - you mention you little girls and I know you are a bereaved mother as well. Did you have twins who could not survive their early birth? - or did this same thing happen twice? - that you lost two little girls separately? - I hope you don't mind my asking - it must have been terrible

But releasing them and remembering their little smiles and giggles and whatever they did in their short lives is celebrating those children - who were given and taken so quickly - losing a teenager is one thing - losing little babies is quite another - but both are painful

But I agree - our lives are richer for the short lives that were our children for too short a time - I know what I did for troubled youth for 10 years after my son died made my life richer - gave me purpose that I hold to this day

And we share this - I honour you and your lost children too - having them all pass too soon has made the lives of others more important

I so feel for you and care about you

Decadian

Thanks @Mazarita. Look after yourself. Catch you when you are feeling better😊💜

Hi @Former-Member

It's cold enough to freeze the walls of a bark humpy tonight - around dinner time we had a massive storm where I live - I am fed up to my missing back teeth with this - thoroughly bored with winter

But I had a very hot shower - and stood there longer than I would normally - I mean a very long time - and having that hotter than usual but not burning hot water running over me while I just stood there thinking about nothing was wonderful - and I feel warm and cosy enough to go to bed soon

And @Former-Member

I am sorry about that walk you had in the dark and cold weather - did you get caught in the rain? I'm glad you got home okay

And everyone else

@Mazarita@Kurra@FaithandHope@Tawney,@Bridget,@Flower,@Sadgirl,@Utopia and anyone I might not think of atm - I hope you all have a peaceful night and a brighter morning

Decadian

It s freezing here too @Decadian , just got the quote to fix gas heater $400 plus also need an electrician. So I'm in bed rugged up to stay warm, dog is acting as hot water bottle 🙂 Luckily it just spotted with rain on my walk home but it had been pouring on and off all day.

I hope you sleep well tonight and your back behaves for you tomorrow 💜💐😴

So good to see you @Former-Member

Havent seen the @PeppiPatty lately ... YOOO HOOO Bella ... hope you are coping.

Thanks @Former-Member

I'm sorry about the cost of your heater - and the electrican on top of that - what a price - ouch

I'm glad you didn't get soaked and you are in bed - I am heading that way myself - before I start getting the cold creeping up my legs again - I have been busy on-line tonight -

Sleep well - and darn - you will be cold in the morning - heaters always go bang in the winter - darn it

Decadian

Night all

@Former-Member thats a bummer.

Even tho my heater works it is in the roof above my son's room. He hates it on as the noise wakes him and it overheats his room. I am the one who feels the cold ... he walks around in a tshirt ... so I have taken to wearing scarves and layers and fluffy sox ... and extra doonas on the bed ... keeps the gas bill down as we just use it a bit.

Layers layers are the way to go

Hoot, hoot @plasmo

Just dropping in to say hi to whoever is around ...

Will try to go back to sleep shortly. It's a ways till morning over here ....