Night Shift

Oh, @Former-Member, that's the depression talking there.

I know I feel the same way when I feel ill. Like there is no future and no hope. It's probably not you and more your illness talking, if you understand what I mean?

I wish I could take this feeling away from you.

What's SI?

Suicide ideation, (fantasising, thinking or planning about suicide) @Former-Member I hope I can put this on here.

Thanks for your kind thoughts. A magic wand would come in handy 💜😊

Glad to hear that your ok @Kurra. I hope you'll work out your work situation, it's a pity it's happened but as your in a pretty good place right now I'm sure you'll work it out. Just a bummer that it had to happen and put a dampener on your day.

ive put my stuff out their in the last few posts of mine if you have anything to add, please don't feel obliged to comment💜😊

Hey @Former-Member. I hope I haven't triggered you in any way. I'm really sorry if I did. I ever really know where it's best to put this stuff 💐💜

Do you spend time with your youngest baby dragon @Former-Member ? I don't mean just in the house-sharing sense, but in the going to the shops together, sitting over a coffee together, watching a movie together sense ?

That's not a judgement, by the way .... it's just asking to get a feel for whether the baby dragon walls are up, then he's complaining that nobody is seeing over them .... which they do .... until it's pointed out to them that it's what they're doing ....

In my experience, the best communication tool at this age is humour ... even if they think you're a bit of a ditz .... they'll love you for it anyway ... with accompanying eye rolls !

I'm okay with it. I know I've spent long enough thinking those thoughts.

I try to think that they are just thoughts, and nothing more.

I'm sorry that people have been treating you as if you're invisible. It's hard when people do that, particularly people who are supposed to be helping and supportive.

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I am not really happy someone would talk to you like this and I believe you deserve so much more then what you are receiving. To be honest I have never heard a therapist to speak to someone like that, you don't need to be challenged you need someone to show you kindness, acceptance, compassion, support, love etc

I sometimes feel invisible too and I struggle with this too, and I am sorry people are treating you like this. Especially people who are meant to love and support you. That would not help you feel better about yourself. Perhaps talking to them about how you feel and to explain to them you need some help etc.

What support do you have atm, I'm a bit worried about you

I guess that's most of my problem still @Former-Member. Even though I know logically I shouldn't buy into them when my emotions are triggered I lose control of my rational thoughts. But then this seems to be then a question of whether I want to live and so I guess it's another chicken and egg thing. Thanks for your response. I just needed to think through this as it's been playing on my mind.

@Former-Member My therapist is really on my side. I think she is challenging me. She is kind and caring and always there for me but I guess sometimes they need to push us too. I guess it struck a chord because my last one did the same. I'm having my hardest day this week again but I am safe and ok.Thanks for your concern 💜😊