Night Shift

Looks like my lame attempt at humour has silenced everyone! Might take off again for a little while now. Hope you enjoy the rest of the evening.

@Mazarita I think it was me. Definitely not you. Here's why

im sorry if I put you on the spot @comet before and made you feel awkward. I wasn't really thinking and the first thing on the tip of my tongue was written💜

im not sure if I triggered anything for you before @Former-Member. If so I'm really really sorry💜

i wish everyone a good night. Sending hugs. 😊💜

@Former-Member, I don't see anything you wrote that was wrong. We are all just sensitive souls I think. Take it easy, avoid the worry, and enjoy the rest of your cosy evening. That's what I'll be doing.

lol @Mazarita dont go away. I guess am I slow at responses.

He came around to my place once ... hmmm ...to ... ssshhhh .... I didnt know he was anybody ... a work girlfriend was always introducing me to big names that I had not had the opportunity to cultivate a desire to know. Before leaving home, I only knew church and classical music and never had radio or pop music on ... apart from ABC. Now I like that about me .. but I didnt really know who it was that I was sliding past back stage ... sharing a j with ...I would look them up and down and think "whats the big deal" or some such ignorant stuff. They probably looked me up and down wondering what the chances ... probably too much of a scientist by then ... My girlfriend probably enjoyed having company as she explored her celebrity phantasies, but was VERY upfront about no hanky-panky, and still got all sorts of invites with me trailing as disinterested observer. I freak my son out when we watch TV saying I shared a swig of whiskey with barnsey ... so yeah I can talk all sorts of music .. not middle of the road .. it was such a waste on me ...I just could not DO groopie. I could not pick or choose .. I had no favourites .. I was polite to them all.

@Former-Member I am ok Thanks for asking .. I got up too late to renew my script for antidep .. but am well rested.

Need to practise some William Byrd and Faure and stuff for 2 gigs tomorrow .. wink wink .. one at church and one paying for the choir ...

@Former-Member Is there any bit of you that you can plain love .. see the child .. you know why you are "you" [edit left out word sorry] better than anyone ... I often hate the intensity of my feelings and my struggles not to give in to temptations and do the right thing. But I am getting my self respect back. @Former-Member It took getting a bit of space between me as a person and me as a mum. You are still heavily involved in parenting.

Can you look at parts of you and say ... just like you can respect your kids .. hey thats kinda cool ... and then build on those parts.

Sorry if I upset you by silly name dropping. I am just looking at all the things that in one area of my life is a great shame and I had to be secretive about but in another context was something to brag about ... does my head in .. but still trying ... I am not a naive now .. but at that time when I was 18-9 .. I was pretty naive .. despite the scene.

Can you imagine I'd do anything to get my son off the coach and to get a life.

Just looking up utube on Mr Cave getting nostalgic and tying up lots of loose ends.

Hi @plasmo Its been lovely having your company but I have to back off a bit and give the forum a rest for a week. I need to get things done. I do really appreciate feeling a part of the furniture here though ...

cheers Apple