Night Shift

@comet It's really lovely to 'hear' you in good cheer. I'm really happy your day and your appointment has gone well.😊💜

I'm still digesting mine but I think it was a step in the right direction for me. She helped calm my farm on a few things, always a good thing😊

I owe you an apology. I've been thinking about it for almost a day. Yesterday when you revealed your past my first post wasn't cool. It ended being all about me instead of showing empathy for your life experiences. I'm really sorry you had a rough life with your parents and obviously wasn't given the love that you needed or deserved. I'm really sorry that you lost your best friends, another huge loss in your life I'd imagine. I'm also sorry that you feel stuck living somewhere that can't be changed ( for now, there's always some hope for that - who says I'm a pessimist). You've lost so much through relationship breakdowns and addictions too. I'm really glad you were able to keep a good relationship with your ex and continue to have one with your daughter, I hope that continues to improve💜

I think that sometimes on here I get caught up in the emotion and I suffer brain fade writing the first thing instead of thinking it through. I'm working on changing this.

hoping your night is as good as your day😊💜

Thanks @Appleblossom. I already knew that I would do the same, just replace one thing for something else. I have had much grief from the community mental health team about it but struggled when my therapist put what I thought was an ultimatum on it. We talked through it a bit today and I feel happier about it. Thanks for your response, it helped me realise I wasn't alone with this. I know it doesn't make sense but I can't let go of it yet😊💜

The last couple of times that I relapsed in smoking cigarettes. I knew they were relapses but that I was on the road to the final quit.

Go gently with ALL of who you are.

Really pleased to hear that you survived the day ok @Former-Member 😊 I was thinking about how you were going on the bus today. Hopefully a good nights sleep will put you back on track for tomorrow 😊💜

@Former-MemberI finally stopped smoking in 1989. It is part of the reason I am less impressed with having to take meds now .. but I do submit to it as necessary for the greater good.

Good on you for doing it too.

@comet You are also so tough on yourself. The SFB is fine. I'm glad you mentioned it, please don't feel bad about it. I think that me apologising was not necessarily being tough on myself but maybe more trying to be true to the person I want to be and I think you deserved a better response than what I gave.

Really interesting about that psychologist, definitely would have had my eyebrow raised and red flags going off. In complete contrast mine always hassle me to keep taking mine. I have a tendency to stop taking them when I get down like last week. All good now and back on top of it.😊

Quick note on editing - I think it will be the case for you as well. When you hit edit you need to wait a second or two until all the symbols disappear. This is the code for a web page. It comes up on mine for a second or two then disappears and you can edit normally. I hope this helps.

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PS. @comet Calm my farm came from my son when he was a young teenager and I would get uptight at him for doing something wrong. He would turn to me and say "Calm your farm mum". It kind of stuck and now it seems more apt than ever😊💜

Shout out to @eth ( I hope this tags properly.) I hope you are doing ok. Been thinking about you. If you are taking a break that's ok too, just wishing you the best. 😊💜