Night Shift

@Snuchu, pity about the nurse today. When do you see her again? Great that you are now rearing to go on options for help now. May need some patience with the process and with yourself too.

@Appleblossom, I see your read that post on the other thread. I've started getting out some of my more strange reflections there. Cool that you can do that really active stuff in the middle of the night. I need to be very quiet in the night here.

Late night'early morning cleaning .. It started to worry my son ... cos he thought it was a sign of my madness ... but he is getting used to it.

Its just that I can be really slow and exhuasted .. but stuff needs to get done .. so I usually always do it quick and fast and when I am in the mood .. but not on any timetable .. when the issues actually bug me .. so I am suiting myself.

Yes I am have a small house so I am lucky I can make noise when I need .. so does my boy

I have been dealing with serious sleep disorder with him for 8 years .. we only had about 6 sessions in a sleep clinic at the RCH ... the ideas are sound .. but we have to keep reinstating a good pattern.

Being able to come online for the last year and chat has been a big life saver.

Eventually we might get into managing and focussing on it .. but we have been making a lot of progress on so many other fronts .. its just wise to use the energy when we have it available .. becasue when its gone .. its gone.

@Decadian I work with the castle idea too .. but not as well developed as you .. its a great Teresa of Avila concept ... "The Interior castle."

@Appleblossom, I think I know what you mean about not necessarily being able to work on everything at once that we might want or need to change over the long term. It's probably mainly for this reason I may discontinue working with my psychologist for now. Trying to juggle too many balls, as I feel she has been pushing me to do, has had them just all dropping to the ground for me too much. I think I'm focussing on as many things as I can handle for now. It's been a good week here so far though, an activity or appointment out of the flat every day, including a get together with a new friend tomorrow to complete the week. Showering every second day with good grooming on the days in between. And after the pampering challenge from @Former-Member last weekend, have been feeling better all week. I'm really glad the late night chats have been beneficial to you.

@Appleblossom, you're totally right, I should take it slow. I was just exicted to get stuff started, haha.

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@Appleblossom wrote:

@Faith-and-Hope I was telling computer to hurry up .. and just chiming in with the plab

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@Appleblossom wrote:

@Decadian I work with the castle idea too .. but not as well developed as you .. its a great Teresa of Avila concept ... "The Interior castle."

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@Decadian @Appleblossom

There is definitely a cat in my "interior castle" ❣

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@Mazarita wrote:

@plasmo, hahaha, nice word play. Did you get out for a walk today? I haven't been doing much of it lately due to the pain but the doc gave me an anti-inflammatory and some pain relief to help me get going again so hoping to be back on the beach soon.

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Good morning @Mazarita 😊

I have been meaning to ask ....... has the Fisiocrem provided you any relief ? ....... and the foot massage you had the other day ..... ?

@Mazarita wrote:

Not participating in that kind of talk is a form of protest in itself so I hope you aren't being too hard on yourself about it.

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I agree ......

Sometimes this is the strongest safe statement you can make ...... just not participating.

I can't remember the context, but I have a vague recollection of a story where a large group of people were gathered in front of someone who was speaking out in a way that was highly offensive, and trying to engage the crowd in some sort of response of a very negative value - some sort of victimisation ...... while I haven't retained that part of the story very well, I have retained the crowd response .......

Someone right in front of him folded their arms and turned around so their back was facing the speaker. The people around them caught on, and started to do the same. It rippled out across the crowd until the speaker was faced with a silent sea of people's backs ....... their rejection of what was being said, and their solidarity in that moment was so powerful ....... that is what has stayed with me.

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Hi @Faith-and-Hope,

Hope the morning is treating you well. 🙂

To answer your questions, I've ordered the Fisiocrem online, as I don't drive. It will arrive in the next week. Also getting some compression socks online, on the recommendation yesterday of the podiatrist, and shoe inserts that she will have for me at our appointment next week. The foot massage the other night was just me giving myself one. It only provided very brief relief but was nice for that time and felt good to do it simply for some self care.

I really love that story you told about silent resistance.