Night Shift

Sorry @Snuchu that was pretty silly of me to suggest it for you, just that it really helped me. I'm sure if there was a way of accessing it (a translator?) you would know about it.

I've moved around and left everything behind too much over the years to even have childhood friends. I like that you do. Would you be able to talk to them about how you want to give up the green and see what happens?

@Snuchu at this stage I don't miss it at all and never get cravings for it. I see that I am doing so much better for being without it. I felt that I had to at least try being without it to see if I was more stable, and most of the time I am. I'm also way better off financially. And I sure as anything don't miss the run around I used to have sometimes to find it and the other stuff I was exposed to in that process.

I hope you find a method of making the change you want that works for you. Would going to rehab be very expensive? I would have done that had I been able to.

@eth, it's alright, you probably didn't know... and a lot of people forget, and that's okay, I don't mind reminding them. 🙂 I could have an interpreter for meetings, but not hotlines.

Yeah, of course, I can talk to them. I'd even explain my situation to them. 🙂

I had a terrible night sleep last night. Why is it that everytime I don't sleep well I have to go to work in the morning??? 😞

From one nightmare to another to another. It just kept going. And even getting to sleep was a bit of a struggle. Maybe tonight I will take a sleeping tablet to help; or I could try meditation first.

Sorry you had a bad nights sleep last night @BlueBay I think the universe conspires against us with sleep before something important. It always seems to happen to me too. Sounds like meditation is worth a go as does a sleeping tablet. Sleep deprivation affects my mood so much. Thinking of you and wishing you a peaceful sleep tonight. 😊💜

Morning everyone🌞 Is anyone around to say hi to. No dramas this morning from my end hopefully

hi @eth too. Good to have you back. I missed you. How was the trip?

Good morning @Former-Member 😊

I can see bring sunlight breaching my curtains ...... and my stomach is growling with hunger ...... I am waiting to see whether these calls from nature are enough to get me up and out of bed to go walking.

Probably the most powerful call of nature is hoping I will see dolphins if I can get my butt up and dressed (yes, slept in p.j.'s last night ...) and down to the river's edge in time for their early morning passage through these parts.

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I'm still in bed procrastinating @Faith-and-Hope. Good luck. Is it chilly there this morning. I don't think it was too bad here this morning. Thank you for last night. I hope I didn't put you on the spot too much. I knew I was at ringing lifeline point but I saw that as a failure because I haven't needed to for a month or so now. I was scared because the urges to do so we're strong. My SH comes in a different form to most. The doctors have told me I am at risk of all sorts of things including heart complications. My case notes state I am at risk of death by misadventure. Even though I know this sometimes that urge to shut off the world wins. I haven't had a major one since November last year. This is the longest I've gone for a few years. Anyway thanks for being here for me, and everyone else as you always are. 😊💜

It's my pleasure to be there for you @Former-Member, as I know it is for you to be there for me ......

We all help each other through these forums, possibly in ways we are not even recognising sometimes.

I think you did just the right thing last night - reaching out for help needs to be the highest priority for all of us, and in reaching out the way you did, you will be giving courage to others here to do the same. That getting-on-board-in-the-moment is powerful stuff, and we can all connect and hold hands with you virtually while that SH moment comes and goes.

I think @Kurra's experience spoke up really well for you last night. She suggested talk-back radio in the car as being more effective than music n the background.. Maybe you can put some Plan B measures in place around you, along with reaching out on the forum, like having a talk-back station tuned in on your car radio somewhere ready to access, and a 5min to-do list (like scrubbing the loo ❣) that you can reach for on the fridge door or somewhere .......

And I loved the idea of @Kurra's candle too. Maybe light a candle and breathe with @Mazarita's box-breathing (in for a count of 4, hold for a count of 4, out for a count of 4, hold for a count of 4, repeat ....) until the compulsion passes, knowing that it will pass over you like a wave if you can just body-surf through it.

Hugs for today. Will be thinking of your over my morning coffee 😊

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Thanks @Faith-and-Hope. I know I still have such a long way to go with this. I still rely on external means to gain control. I need to be able to internally do this.

I also read your post on the other thread. Every time you write I get a better understanding of what you are going through. Thinking of you too😊💜