Night Shift

Hi all,

I've had a really really awful day. i had some really awful things happen and felt shaky and faint throughout the day and had a medical test as well. then some triggering training tonight that i left early from which is probably unprofessional but i think i just needed to and now im just going over everything that happened and trying to figure out if there was more i could have done, done something differently and im swimming in circles trying to swallow my own tail. my stomach feels like it has twisted itself into several knots and my throat is very tight. plus raging with pain because of this darn cold i have!

sorry for the rant/rave

lj

Hi @Former-Member sorry to hear your day has been so rotten. Sounds like you really need to put your physical health first tonight and try to let go of what happened for a little while if you can. The deep breathing might help and definitely rug up. Can you have lemon, ginger and honey drinks? Or even just some honey? It does help soothe the throat. Thinking of you and sending warm wishes.

Hi @Former-Member,

It might help to interrupt that 'going over and over' process in your mind if possible, but I understand that anxiety like that can be hard to stop sometimes. Is it possible for you to have a bath? Anything you can do to relax your body might help relax your mind too. Sending you calming energy after such a difficult day.

Thank you both @Mazarita @eth

yes, i think a honey and lemon tea is great idea, i hadnt thought of it! duh! and yes, i do need to just interrupt the cycle and i dont know accept that its happened and just try and put it aside for now.

im so exhausted. im starting to feel a bit numb now though so things are slowing down a bit.

how were your days? how are you both?

LJ

@Mazarita @Former-Member I slept from early this morning until after 11 so my day has been somewhat shorter than usual but it was great to get the extra sleep. Then coffee with my neighbour, finished getting organized for my camping trip and was back at my neighbour's for dinner.

Long chats with both my mother and brother this evening too, sorting out Mum's Advanced Health Directive and Enduring Power of Attorney. Still a work in progress. My brother and sister are somewhat pissed off with Mum as she's said some pretty insensitive things in the course of all the emails to and fro overnight.

Hi @Former-Member, sounds like a dreadful day. Maybe pick it apart tomorrow and focus on something more soothing tonight? Honey and lemon sounds great. And a bath is always lovely. I'm watching some delightful trash on tele - The Catch - which is a good diversion. Do you have any guilty TV pleasures?

@Former-Member, glad you feel you feel you might be slowing down a bit, however that is happening. Imagining you making a nice cup of tea now. 🙂

@eth, maybe what your mum is saying is related to her age and state of health at the moment. Hopefully your siblings might be able to see past it. Other than that, it sounds like a good day for you.

Day has been okay here. Waited for the plumber to arrive in the morning but it turned out he wasn't coming after all. Did washing, napped a couple of times to catch up on sleep missed last night. Did some admin work on the video I've just completed. Waiting game now to see if I'll get the artists permissions to release it publicly. That's about it here.

oh dear @eth thats a pretty heavy topic as well, and must be difficult for everyone. hope that things can cool off or get sorted one way or another with your mum. hugs!

@Former-Member im not sure i can contemplate tomorrow, to contemplate today, seriously thinking about hiding and staying home under my bed tomorrrow! and hope my boss doesnt come to find me! doh!

guilty pleasures... hmm been watchign old silly comedies lately on netflix to distract. i was watching that 70's show for a bit last night, might look at that again tonight. We dont have tv here as tv antenna is broken. but netflix is good lol

lj

oh what a pain that the plumber didnt coem @Mazarita - did they say when they are coming?

Fingers crossed that the artist says yes! good luck

@Former-Member,

Sounds like a day off tomorrow might be very helpful, especially since you are battling a physical health issue as well as the anxieties. With your cold, that would also avoid spreading it around at school too...

Yes, I'm always a bit nervous at this stage of the video process because I never know whether the artists will like what I've done or give permission for me to make it public. There's only been one instance so far where a writer didn't much like what I'd done. In that case, I try to just view all the work I've done as good private practice in further developing my skills. This one has taken a good couple of weeks of fairly intensive effort. Enjoyable though. 🙂

I find it very hard in general to concentrate on TV these days for some reason and have no cable. You sound more into what you watch though so Netflix sounds a good way to relax and distract too.

p.s. to answer your question about the plumber, the rental managers have decided now that it may be a roofing problem instead. We don't think that's it in our case but it's not a major issue anyway. It only happens when the rain is fully torrential and we can be on guard for it next time and pull everything out of the wardrobe before the seepage starts.