Night Shift

Hi @Former-Member, the worry is the thing that is probably tiring you out more than anything really. I know when gripped by that intensely it can be hard to break out of. If possible, can you think of having a bath (if you have one where you are living now). Also, focussing on the breathing: deeply in for four counts, out for five or more. Even just five minutes of that can slow things down in the mind. I've also restarted colouring in (something you first introduced me to). Although it may seem there are many other things more important for you to do at this time, it seems important to remember the mindfulness exercises if possible. Colouring certainly does help to slow down the conscious mind. Basically anything you can do to relax the body and mind may help. I understand if it's too hard for you to focus on those things just now (know the feeling well). But, even if it only works temporarily, one or more of these things may help to interrup the cycle of worry.

Hi @Angels333, sending another voice of support on your brother's anniversary. Your words about childhood violence resonate with me. I too experienced that and tried many different hard substances in my earlier adult years. I'm lucky to have survived. Very glad you are here with us now.

Hi @Former-Member. How's your day been?

Hi too to anyone else who is around.

@Former-Member,

Congrats on moving in, an exciting time. Awesome that you are now able to look back on the time when it felt impossible knowing you've done it.

Difficult day here, struggling hard with reducing the smokes, fallout from seeing psychologist last Friday and continued bad dreams. Failed to make it to appointments today, nothing desperate though. Got a few things done around the flat despite feeling pretty messed up all day. Fell into bed at 8pm from too much inner turmoil. Just woke up again a little while ago and feeling much better now in the quiet of night.

@Former-Member, it sounds like you have a really supportive therapist, nice one. Am I reading it wrong, or are you implying you don't smile very much usually? Glad to hear you were doing that tonight. We all look and feel better for a smile if we can get it. 🙂

Yeah, the reduction of smokes is amazingly difficult. Fighting off the urge right now as we are chatting. Distracting by colouring in, breathing, having a drink, etc. Will probably give in at some point before too long and have half a smoke (another tactic, half instead of full). But the longer I can delay the better. I was already down from 20 smokes a day to average 7. Past few days I've brought the average down to 6. Oddly enough it can be harder as you get closer to zero.

OMG @Former-Member

Cool name

Cool Picture

You are most definately one to read ......@lisajane is amazing.....she just needs to be reminded a lot.

My name is PeppiPatty.... I havent seen you around but

1. My wifi has been sick....actully wifi in my area was sick.........

2. I only check out a very few threads....

How are you tonight ?

Mr You Know who ( husband.... ) just cut down 2 packets from 6 packets of smoke to 4 packets. It's a very big battle for him. MI is ..... such a drainer. But he has also.... turned his life around from quitting all illegal substances and alcohol about 13 months ago...