Night Shift

Hi @Former-Member, sending you hugs, thinking of you, wishing you safety and a less anxious night.

Take care my friend.

Jacques

Oh golly gosh @Jacques I just did that.

Wow @Former-Member that is so awesome!! i used to do running and i loved that feeling that came like i could just keep running forever after a certain distance... like the body was all in sync somehow. You are amazing! but hope you are taking care of you and giving yourself a bit of a reward after all that effort (nice long hot bath.. give your legs a gentle self massage or something 🙂

i'm struggling at the moment too... i feel like ican cope for an hour or so then crash and feel like its all over. im spiralling down and just finding it hard to keep up.

lj

Dear @Former-Member

Breathe goes in and the breathe goes out. Chest expands a little .. full of air ... and the air eases out.

@Former-Member its hard to settle when there is a bad vibe person in your space.. we are all batting for you ... take care ... congrats on your run and yoga.

@PeppiPatty and @Shaz51 and @Jacques Count this roasted mum in for the next lot of coffee beans pleez.

I am glad you found that Schubert music. Its a wonderful European tradition. Yep I am a proud mum ... online and offline.

Thanks all...

@Former-Member - I don't get sore legs! & I'm not allowed to take baths - farm - tank water.... boo....

I was enjoying reading The Help today.... I really would like to sleep for a week.... I'm trying so hard - it is exhausting... My partner didn't mean to, but he upset me re my running.... It's complicated - he has decided he wants to be an ultrarunner - & I just felt like he was diminishing all the effort & accomplishment of the distances I've done - 5k 10k - 21.1k... & I think I know more about running - especially since he has run 5km once non stop since I've known him... & I just feel like he wants me to be everything - an ultrarunner, a yoga teacher, a mother, get degree (all things I want - though not sure about mother - keep changing mind) but I'm so tired of people saying you can do this & you can do that & it not happening.. I'm just tired.... I don't know what I can do to calm myself... I just want to hide...

Sorry you aren't coping @Former-Member big hugs... Thank you all - sorry I just need to rest - I'll probably try to write an email to my psychologist that is coherant about how I'm feeling tomorrow- sometimes I feel like I'm just not enough.... do this, do that, you can do this blah blah blah... stop - I'm suicidal every day - it is a feat that I shower.... let alone go to yoga, attempt to run my obviously dismal distance....

I am sooo happy for you @Appleblossom

Hugs @Former-Member - maybe on a rainy day you can treat yourself to a bath... sigh about the farm and tanks... but you are awesome not getting sore legs.. must be a natural runner 🙂

i wouldnt focus too much on comparing to ur partner... at least not before he's achieved it lol.. if that makes sense (bit of humour in there). those big term goals are not so important right now, though i know its easier to say that than feel as though focussing on today is goign to make much of a difference.

you've got this far and i think you're pretty amazing doing what you are doing... reducing meds, still going to yoga and running. being here, living in difficult situation and fighting every day. enjoy your runs, no matter the distance,

hope you are ok

lj

Hi All,

Good to see you all !! My hub just woke me from a deep sleep and complained that he's lonely and he's talking constantly......grrrr.........

Lj; Can you think of things that will help you deal with the day?

Bowls of fresh fruit ?

Yogurt?

Writing pros and cons of working during the day?

@Former-Member Always thinking that you are like a little lady bird...sending your love around us !!

Agree; just what you have acheived is huge. I cannot believe how well you write here.