Night Shift

Cold used tea bags on your eyes will take the puffiness down @Former-Member ... and drinking the tea first will help with the tiredness .... it's really good for you .... ☕️💗

Tomorrow is more clean-up and tidy-up for me ... and have to try to catch up with a few people before we leave .... also have a follow-up apt with the eye specialist for WH in the afternoon. Nothing seems to have changed tho.

How was Brisbane ? The weather here has been all kinds of weird ... hot, cold, cloudy, clear ... 🌤🌥⛅️🌧🌦☀️

Sounds like a pretty successful day @Faith-and-Hope. It's good that you are getting glimpses of WH coming to terms with lots of things lately. I know it's no step for mankind yet but things seem to be going in a slightly better direction.

I had an ok day before partly disintegrating tonight. I've had two difficult nights but I'm not in dangerous territory yet. It is what it is.

Are you going with d3, d2 and S2?

I am glad I slept better to last night. I have been trying to get Kira to go through the doggy door and she has been really good- the first time it took her 60mins and second time 15mins third time ten mins. She is a good girl.

I am bit like you but I think I am more guarded at times and overtimes people say I express myself well. I tend to be able to gauge most people well. I am glad you have people in your life that you can open up to.

I am not feeling so tired around my eyes tonight but I can still feel it. I am bit stress over a few things to be honest.

• My lack of sleep most nights
• Bottling up my emotions
• Family problems (dynamics)
• Past tramua

I am not sure what else is making me stress but I think its a range of things and not feeling too uncomfortable around certain people. I think that is evident in me withdrawing into myself. Thank you for your concern.

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Yes, and MIL ... not too different from travelling with my full brood ... 😏 ... MIL is a mid-life crisis all of her own .... but in his current state, that actually helps me to not have to deal with WH full-time ... they're a pair ... :face_with_rolling_eyes:

Gives me greater flexibility under some circumstances, if that makes sense.

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That's a pretty comprehensive stress list as it is .... the lack of sleep will give you puffy eyes, but resting and tea bags will improve it a lot. The body needs a chance to heal and restore, and resting is half the value of sleeping, so it's substantial, and worth it. Just a slower recharge. It's something I do all the time ... pace myself according to my energy availability and requirements ... faster and slower times of day, or days in the week.

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Good job teaching Kira to go through a doggy door. My dog is either really quick at learning things or really really stubborn. I was trying to teach him to put the ball in a box when he returns it, he downright refused. Not even remotely interested even with treats. He has learned to stay off my bed and I have been sleeping better except for the last two where my brain is going haywire daring me to do stupid things. Grr.

Lack of sleep is really distressing I find. There are times I bottle up emotions and times where I just react wearing my heart on my sleeve. Family dynamics are hard. I know you've had a difficult up bringing as well. I'm trying to work out how to have a relationship with my mum but some days it is hard work. I've just started being more honest with her about my MI as I have been very closed with them about it. We'll see how that goes.

Even though I can be honest with a couple of friends it is very different to being on here. I don't seek much from them. I don't usually say much unless they ask and then sometimes I offer limited info. I need to keep those friendships a bit balanced. Lately I've been scared about being too unwell for too long and them getting too frustrated and walking away.

I hope you get back to sleeping soon. I'm sure if you did it would help with everything else. When I don't sleep I forget my medication then the vicious circle begins and I slide down hill really quickly.

I'll try the teabags tomorrow for me eyes and also drinking more tea during the day @Faith-and-Hope

Brisbane was good, a lot of traffic on the M1 going up to Brisbane and I was a bit surprised with the traffic going home this afternoon, I thought the traffic would be going north.

It was hot in Brisbane, it didn't feel as hot before I left the Coast but apparently Brisbane got to 35 degrees today. I think its meant to be cooler tomorrow.

I am not sure if some of the puffiness is from my thyroid. I think I might try to get some shut eye soon.

Oh wow @Faith-and-Hope. I guess that always helps with D2 as well to have mil around. And it would help WH as well. At least if he breaks down while OS you will have help. I'm hoping you have a really relaxing and enjoyable trip. 2016 has been a huge year for you.

Thanks @Former-Member .... and yes ... if I need to drop everything and see to WH at some point, between the rest of them they will manage. These things play a role, and I am thankful for that.

It has been a huge year .... we have had a huge life really .... reflected in the events of this year somewhat ... it's been a circumstantial roller coaster for a long time, but things have a strange way of coming together, often at the very last second aka D3's academics .... I could list off dozens of close calls and bigger than usual waves ... it's just what we've got ...

I'm headed to bed now too @Former-Member. I hope you both get some decent rest, if not sleep exactly.

My cold has gone I think ... yay 😊❣

If your friends are loyal @Former-Member, and it sounds like they are, I reckon they will stick by you through thick and thin, but won't want to disrespect your boundaries either ... they will wait on you to show them what you need from them ... and you obviously respect that too. As crazy as circumstances may seem, there can still be a respected unspoken code between people who care for each other ... guessing that's what you've got.

G'night 💗💕

Good night @Faith-and-Hope😴😴😴😴😴💜🤗

Hi again ,

Kira could go through the doggy door until I replaced the old one but also the old door came apart from the doggy door so there no actual door there just the opening for Kira to go through and I replace it last summer because I was worried about snakes and if they could get inside.

But Kira at times as been wanting me to open and close doors for her but the last month or so when I am at home she wants me to open the door to her all the time. But it also meant she wanted me to open the door during the night too- she only seems to do that when I have a broken sleep. I thought it was probably better that I got Kira through the doggy door so I could get a better nights sleep.

So on Friday I decided I was not going to open the door for her but the first time I forgot she went around to the side and its become quite automatic so I open the door for her and the rest you know. I thought it would have taken a bit longer with her because she is also really stubborn, I thought she would actually refuse to go through the doggy door.

I've never really had a sleep problem until about four years ago and its been pretty chronic since. I think this is huge on my agenda to try to resolve as much as possible. The last time I felt quite bright it would have been about 5 months ago but that was only for a day. I just have to expand on that day though.

I am going to try to work on those points I mentioned to you and not sure about really opening up to my family. You are right I have had a difficlt upbringing and also had difficult family members too. When I was growing up I was really close to My Pop and I miss him a lot.

When I was younger I made friends easy, I am not so good at making that connection now. In some ways I am more happier in my own company and plus I am happy in my own skin too. I am not sure if the reason I find it difficult to make friends because I left my hometown in year 9, that is when we moved to Qld. I think its time when most kids find their feet a little and I found it difficult because we moved interstate and plus my Dad needed bypass surgery. But I am also really reserved and quiet at times. Sorry for me rambling on, it probably does not make much sense.

I probably should try to get some sleep soon, I think I have posted this before but I think its time for to head off to bed. Goodluck for tomorrow @Former-Member.