Night Shift

Hi @Shaz51

That's good - I am glad you are awake and I am glad to report I am eating again - food actually has a taste

And @Shaz51. @Mazarita. @PeppiPatty. @Faith-and-Hope. @Former-Member @utopia, @Former-Member, @Former-Member,@Tab and anyone I have forgotten

I am going to the dentist next week, my cat is having her teeth looked at too, my gd has had a big tooth out - crowded mouth - how come some many people are having their teeth attended too - I hope yours is settling @TAB

Dec

That is good that you are eating again @Decadian

Hi @Decadian

I was running around doing my stuff today and you entered my mind. I imagine you as a tall thin lady who has control of her felings in illness. I imagine you sitting at a round table near a window..with a slight smile on your face, grey, dark long hair.

How are you? I dislike getting sinutitis very much.

On Tuesday night, an old boyfriend if mine came hassling me and my husband......when I first joined Sane Forums, I had seperated from my husband because of his massive drug and alcohol abuse. This person, pushed his way into my life and when I repeatedly tried to push him out, he pushed back. Every time I called the police, they were very rude to me tellng me that there was no case as he didnt hit me. He was stalking me !! After about 15 months, the police actually called me and apologised when they realised what he was doing.

By then, my husband and I were back on talking terms and when he saw my husband, he came up threatening him and my huband asked him to get on his way in a very non threatening way.

So, today, I went to the courts for another restraining order. Phew.

I like hearing about your cat......poor darling. Cat and his teeth. Then your GD. My husband's toe nails are falling off and then I bruised my toe nails too......weird......

Thankyou so much understanding about my son. I have been secretly asking a couple of men I know to meet him for coffee next week. They are both very compassionate and older than him, My son is dealling with a lot and he is acting out again with drugs and alcohol because he is not talking about it with anyone responsible. It's heartbreaking. He is starting to have headaches and vomiting again too.

How are you right now with the silly sinutitis? what is happening after 3 weeks?

Kudos to you babe, Anne

Thanks @Shaz51

It is good to eat properly - I was having healthy snacks but it's not the same as fish and vegies for lunch and a salad sammidge for tea - we have to stoke the engines

I was too tired to eat when I was sick - it was about 3 weeks - two weeks with the infection and I only finished the antibiotics on Thursday - and they can make us feel pretty ordinary,

Then I had cardboard flavoured yoghurt, cardboard flavoured sandwiches and even the cardboard tasted like cardboard - but today I had a beautiful piece of cod with vegetables and ate the whole lot except for the mashed potato - which tastes like mashed potato now

It's so good to feel ordinary again

Dec

Hi @PeppiPatty, @Shaz51, @Decadian, other old friends and newcomers. 🙂

Thought I'd just pop in to say hi tonight since I had a few callouts in the email inbox. Thanks for remembering me after quite a while of being away.

I'm so out of touch with what's been happening on the forums. I've only been dropping in to a few webinar events and reading a little here and there over recent months. It's good to see Night Shift is still a friendly drop in place.

It's been good to take some time out from the forums to focus on real life. I am still struggling with physical health problems that often keep me in the home when I really would prefer and be better mentally for being out of it. Nonetheless, I've been managing to get out at least two times a week, sometimes three, sometimes more. But often it's just one thing per day and my energy is spent. At other times I seem to need a day out after getting out to recover energy and heal from pain. I've been spending more time with real life friends and with activities at a local community health centre. Knitting a lot. Making videos still, though not as intensely. Going through ups and downs with medications. I'm now six months free of the green, feeling good about that, though still tempted at times of pain and boredom.

That's my progress report for anyone who's interested.

Sending lots of good wishes to everyone here until next time. ox

Hi Anne

I am over the sinusitis - and now life is coming back

I am tall - I used to be very thin - but I have a nice comfortable bit of weight on-board now - and I used to have long hair - I had to have it cut when I tore the tendons in my right shoulder and it's silver in the front but dark at the back - that is uncanny - and I think I smile a lot - maybe when I am thinking quiet thoughts I have a quiet smile

The round table - yes - but it's outside and I often brush the cobwebs off the chairs and sit at the table looking at the sky -

Are you psychic? - sometimes I am

I had a boyfriend many years ago now - 14 - 15 years since we split for good - he was into MJ and this made me unhappy. I am a university graduate so I have been around but I found having someone I loved so much disappear into a cloud of sickly sweet smoke heart-breaking - I told him it was over and he stalked me - it is horrible being stalked

I hope you can get the restraining order without too much trouble.

It is so bleak and terrible when our kids lose their way - my son was an alcoholic - or on his way to becoming one - it's heart breaking and I do understand - he was into SH too - there is so little you can do but getting your son to hook up with some responsible young men who are a little older than he is sounds like a good idea

My son was bright and charismatic - very intelligent - I have learned to be philosophical about him - he haunted me for 18 years but turned up in a dream 12 years ago now - and he told me he was moving on and would not be back - it was a brilliant dream - he was so handsome and in the dream he was in his thirties - now he would be 46 - and he has stopped haunting me - but I still feel him around at times

There is something good that has come out of all the trouble - and that is that I really do understand what people go through with their kids when they turn into troubled young adults - and how hard it is to keep our balance in all of that

This website has been a tremendous help to me - I feel so much at home here - and for all the problems I have there is always someone else with similar stuff - and it is a strange thing to call a blessing but I believe it is

I believe what happened was meant to happen

Regards - Lin

I am so glad you had a good laugh @utopia - laughter is the best medicine

I am seeing my dentist who is the only dentist I will allow to even think of looking inside my mouth - it is time for a check-up to save the few teeth I have left - I suppose people wonder why I keep these few teeth - but they do keep my partials where they belong -

And the cat is going to the vet

And my gd had a tooth out in Hospital - it was a big one - she has a crowded mouth - or rather she has crowded teeth - so what's new? - we all have oversized teeth in my family

Now I am trying to imagine Snugly having her teeth scaled at my dentist - sitting in the dentist chair and having a GA - and my left-handed dentist and left-handed cat having all this happening. I am laughing now -

While I go to the Animal Hospital where they laugh because I say I am Snugly's human -

I'm worried about my cat - I love her very much - she is my companion - and means so much to me - she saved my life once - and she warns me when something strange is happening - I know the time will come when she will have to go to the Rainbow Bridge but I am not ready yet - but she has lost weight

Enough of this

I understand you feeling raw but better, and emotional but cleansed

I wonder - yes indeed - we all have painful past issues - and it seems as if there is a lot of cross-information - for the want of a better word - but it does make me wonder. Are we the honest and sane people? Are the "normal" people the ones with problems

It seems so to me - everyone has issues - it's normal - but not normal to cover them up and pretend all is well

I think it's time for me to stop for now - I am starting to feel tired

Dec

Dearest @Mazarita

I have missed you. But also acknowledge that I needed a couple of months off the forums and it's been the world of good. Even now, Im not fully on it. There are so many more people and so many more,,,,,,,,brilliant brilliant people.

Brilliant on the quitting of the green. I can seehow much you miss it sometimes. Does it get easier?

Yes, yes, I am very there with you with the one thing and I'm exhausted story. I push myself to work and pushing myself to have just one friend .....she is married and has three children under 7 and shes 42 years old. We completely think differently but we get along very very well. Im cleaning one full day per fortnight. I come home with bones aching. I work about 10 to 12 hours per week as well cleaning. I work for food from one job but I also speak to her about staying safe and keeping herself grounded so theres a bit of Psychotherapy which keeps me amused. I'm drawing a bit.

I also help an older lady where I live get her home clean as well. It's very weird cleaning, I actually love it. When I was studying Psychotherapy, many people used to say that I deserved something better but I never wanted to listen to others but I wanted just to understand myself and get through my son's illnesses.

This is a picture of a copy of an Anglo Saxon Hut. I have been writing a story with guidance with my Psychotherapist, IT's been a lot of fun.

Doesnt Carl Yung rave on about th lonrlinrdd and boredom of the adult? I notice that some women I know enjoy putting me down by talking about my need to have compant always and thats hey I married again.