Night Shift

Lol @Shaz51, yes I do the same!
Everyone's makings are different for sure.
I've only my little one this week, so a quieter week.
It's makes me realize how much I pool into 'being mum'
My little man was initially unwell, but he's getting better.
Hope you get a nice cuppa & time to think! 😉

Yes! I was just thinking I need a coffee perhaps!
Thanks Shaz!
A lady just popped by, I'm selling some clothes etc on line. The shoes were too small. She was a lovely mum, doing dancing now.
I used to go to dance class once a week.
This term I plan to go swimming once a week myself and use up card before it runs out.
It's not much, but a start to some 'time out'.

I wondered yesterday many things, wether I had 3 times PND?
It takes time to process a lifetime's work with children in the mix!!! LOL

@Shaz51, gosh I'm slow on tagging today!!

Gosh! Are you feeling any better @Former-Member?
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Scary for you, nearly fainting. 😯 Your little one sounds a sweetie. 😊
You really do need some rest. Are your other boys with their dad?

Yes, working with children was one of my many jobs @Shaz51 😊 I've had many. I always liked a change. Have done office work, reception, lots of variety..............
Haven't been able to work for a long time. PTSD is one of the reasons. 😮😯

I believe it would be fulfilling to work a bit. But last time I tried to do a morning once a week, doing office, reception, something really awful happened to trigger the PTSD. I had to give a long statement to the police etc. So I really need to get well before I attempt to work at all.

Well, it certainly was an event getting to my psychologist appointment this morning. Traffic was the worst I've ever seen it, just near her office. Took ages to get there, only to discover there weren't any parking spots.
Huge panic attack, but after alot of searching I found a park down the road.

No nice time out with my daughter afterwards. I dont like disappointing her. But I just had to go home. Had a little sleep. Feel drained, exhausted. 😮😢

Now I have to cancel next week's appointment. I need a new Health care plan and doctor won't be able to fit me in before Tuesday. Monday is a holiday.
Sorry for the whinge. Feeling really down at the moment. I'll get back up again though.
Must be cuppa time. ☕

Definitely a cuppa will help! It's distraction for one small moment.
Can the psychologist just request more time on your plan? @ Bridget.
I believe it's possible. Maybe call tomorrow & check out when today has gone. 😊
Sorry to hear about your panic, nothing worse.
It brain freezes or sends me into overdrive.

Um I'm ok now. Thank you.
I've really wondered today where have I been?
I read a Really interesting article about taking ones time, & accepting that where your at, is where you need to be.
I.e. if we rush it, we miss the process of where it's going to take us,...in effect to move beyond & forwards.
My son is cute, I'm watching him outside, listening to the birds. He's an inquisitive little fellow.
I trust his judgments in matters I realize today when he didn't take to this lady, I've had contact with for my other son.
We (partner & I) resolved she wasn't the right help for us all...I think my little one was onto something. 😉

Glad you're feeling better @Former-Member 😊

You mentioned about not rushing our journey.
I've discovered that I can't rush with the EMDR 😀

We worked on an awful incident that happened when I was a teenager. One minute I was able to "go back there", then I would feel numb again. I'm so used to putting up a protective wall. I don't even have to try. The protective wall just comes up. It is VERY frustrating, because, for EMDR to work, I have to "go back" there. Grrr! I'm hoping it did work a bit though. Psychologist said the protective wall has kept me "sane". So that's good. 😀 Let's hope the wall will come down next time.
Gosh! I've had so much trauma happen, I sometimes think it's going to take forever. 😯😮
Have to start somewhere.

Hmm! Dinner. I don't feel like cooking and too tired to go out.