Night Shift

Really glad you're getting your car back @Former-Member. I always feel lost without my car or my mobile phone. I've had a topsy-turvy day. Spent most of it in bed being useless 😏😔. Sounds like you've picked up a bit since the other night. I'm so pleased the volunteering is working out for you. Are you going to be doing your masters externally? Just wondering if you'll be able to keep your volunteering if you love it.

Glad you enjoy your volunteer work @Former-Member

My week has been up and down. Sometimes I feel like I'm going ahead and then I feel anxious, have panic attacks, it's to do with PTSD. I'm having therapy for it, so I will improve. Just frustrating, as you probably know as you struggle with anxiety as well. It's very draining.

It's not easy coping during the day when we can't sleep properly. Good you slept well last night though.

I better head off in the shower.

That's good you feel like having a good chat tonight @Former-Member. I did some pilates, yay! I don't like exercising or walking, but I know I have to do it for health reasons.

Hi @Former-Member and @Former-Member

Yes - there have been a few ups and downs in the past week - it was good to get those items back - I wonder how my niece happened to get them - but whatever - I have them now

And the PDFs yes - that was a breakthrough - this website really helps me to see my life as other people might - I was lost in piles of sodden tissues and losing time napping and aching with different aches and pain - ster-ange week -

I have an appointment for a hair cut next week - I always like that

And yes - my new computer is a laptop - having a desktop seems so late last decade now - and remember dial-up and wait..........wait..........wait............until it finally found what you were looking for - it was so great to update everytime I updated things - it felt good

Like I even QUIT when I bought my first mobile phone - and used the games to keep my hands busy - it wsa more interesting having a mobile phone than it was smoking - I really hate the smelll of it now - why did I do it

[Actually I know why I started - but I didn't smoke all the time]

And I know about over-doing things - actually something I had better take on board tomorrow - I do not want to over-do things - I started a thread called "Over-doers Anonymous" - maybe it's time to have a look at that again

All the best girls -

Decadian

Thanks @Former-Member I'm lost without my car & mobile too. On Wednesday I left my mobile at home of all days to leave it, because when I realized I left it at home( a few hundred metres up the road but no time to come back to collect it), I am thinking I am going to need it today but there was a payphone close by so I could call roadside assistance and they were able to help me. I'm actually thinking of selling it - as I got a roadworthy certificate so that I can sell it privately.

I will be doing my course externally and I will still do my volunteering work, I am hoping I will be much better by then. I have keep trying and believing in myself more and trusting my own abilities. Everyone is so nice at the animal park and looking forward to starting my course there too.

I had to push myself to get moving today and I went out this afternoon on the bus and went to the local shopping centre for coffee and just caught the bus home and stopped off on the way home for groceries.Does staying in bed make your anxiety levels worse- it seems to happen with me because I am overthinking and plus just sitting around does not help much even though at times it doesn't feel like much of an option to get out of bed.

Of late I have been getting a sweet tooth, I never really been that way I think more savory and now I like both lol. Hope you are a bit more settled and able to take back a bit from your emotions.

Staying in bed isn't fun at all @Former-Member but some days I'm so fatigued it's all I seem to be able to do. If I'm distressed I just do jigsaw puzzles on my iPad and that keeps my thoughts at bay for a bit. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Im glad you can work and study. This all sounds positive. You seem to have a good understanding of what you can and can't do. Keep going with your intuition with this as it seems to be working. You are doing so well getting back into the real world. I'm watching and learning from you for this too. Keep going @Former-Member you are doing well💜😊

Thanks @Former-Member

My anxiety stems from PTSD but I try to push through the best way I can. You are right anxiety is very draining both phyically and mentally and what I have heard having anxiety problems is quite diffcult to treat. I just try to manage it by normalizing my feelings and just going back to basics before tackling anything more challenging.

I am finding my sleep is improving slowing even though I have patches when I can't sleep much- the sleep problem is related to my PTSD. A good sleep seems to really lift my mood which really helps me feel brighter and able to function better.

A nice warm shower sounds nice, I think I will wait now until morning to have my shower. Its almost time for bed soon. But not really tired but last nite I couldn't keep my eyes open. Hope you have a great day tomorrow

I truly understand/relate about fatigue and staying in bed @Former-Member. Have you had a checkup recently or any Blood tests to rule out any physical cause? To me you sound burnt out and really need to recharge your mind and body too. I think its great you are able to do the jigsaw puzzles when distressed I couldn't do that because my anxiety would be too much. Tomorow is always better @Former-Member

When I was coping better I was able to recognize before I became anxious/distresed and I was able to step back from my emotions and another good strategy is to normalize your feelings and that will help with your intensity of emotions and help ground you more.

Thank you for all your kind words. I'm hoping to slowly rebuild myself and to trust the process more. Learning to let things go as served me well and I hope to continue to do this but more importantly just to enjoy life and to be happy and comfortable in my own skin.

I seem to be writing a lot tonight.

I mite head off to bed soonish