Night Shift

Not at all @Former-Member,

in the strangest way you helped me because I couldn't let your post go with out responding. I didn't like seeing you hurt and by coming on I feel a bit better too. Please don't ever feel like you are letting anyone down here, this is where we help each other when things are tough and we also celebrate the wins along the way and everything in between. I hope it helped which is the main thing really. It's all ok @Former-Member. I hope you have a peaceful night. 💜💐

I'm just going @Former-Member. Not feeling much up to talking about me right now but that's ok because I get plenty of airtime on here when I need to. I feel blessed to have so much support on the forum.

I love what you have chosen to do in your volunteering. @Former-Member It will be grounding and healing ... not in schmoshie way ... but in the hard headed way of mother nature. Congrats ... GO YOU. Once my husband at the timne told me that my mother was surprising as she always seemd jealous when anything good happened to me ... I guess it is wiser to take heed of those signals. .. hurtful though they are ... It definitely is HIS problem if he cant express and share joy in your achievement ... take care

@Kurra Good luck on the work scene ... you are such a loveable & tough nut ... names and tagging lists ... can be a way of making clear & external that we are relating to each other and not just tossing around vague scmaltzy generalities ... I thought you may have been left out ... there are so many ways we can HELP and HINDER ... but at least if we put it out there with good will ... the group process will roll on in a positive manner.

@Former-Member Dont I know it ... that it is easier to talk about other things than ourselves ... sometimes ... but we all do a bit of both .. and thats as it should be ... Gentleigh Bentleigh with your nortiness.

@TAB Finger crossed for the dentist

Hi everybody else ... new people and oldies ... young at heart and old ...

I am in topsy turvy land re sleeping agin ... hmmmmm ... but nothing bad has happened .. just resting after big weekend and listening to my body ... and not fighting myself or rising to any challenges ... having a lot of dreams ... which is good ... as I feel I am processing stuff.

Hey @Kurra, this is for when you wake up. I'm sorry for that comment re the shout outs as I was being a smart arse. It was a good shout out. Currently I didn't need to be on that list as I genuinely feel and appreciate all the support you are throwing my way. It means a lot to me. I hope work is good today. 💜💜💜

Cheers for the shout out @Appleblossom. Good to hear from you and that you are going Gentleigh Bentleigh 💜

thanks for the support earlier too @utopia. It was appreciated 💜

I am not sure ... but maybe I need to find my inner smart-alec ... it might keep me on track with verbal comebacks .. dont bulldoze me ... in the present etc ... I have been plenty in the present ... but not always vocalising .... thats why singing is such a surprising find for me.

I did have immediate responses to a few situations ... but also careful about not being provocative and stirring when things are delicate ... I could write a Phd about walking on eggshells ...

still have not heard from pdoc ... re the triage ... wonder how long I will wait this time ... if it is too long ... it will drastically alter my trust and sense of giving my all to the process.

Not sure that being a smart Alec is all that helpful @Appleblossom. It gets me in trouble probably more than it gets me out.

Im not quite following, must have missed it, about the pdoc and triage. What's happening or supposed to be happening @Appleblossom.?

Well I have been so well trained to do the right thing, not to over react or be hasty and think things through etc etc ... its good to sometimes just let what comes out .. come out ... of my mouth.

I booked in to see a pdoc ... again ... I seem to do it every few years .. and get told no I am ok ... go away ... so no proper diagnoses ... when someone saw how anxious I was as picking at my nails through all the rehearsals ... I just told her I had complex PTSD ... she understood and was nice ... but no doc has ever said that to me.

I am upset that my son is taking antipsychotics ... I would prefer it to be me ... and for him to cleanse his system out.

Hi Guys,

Thank you all so much for your support and kind words.

I can't remember if I mentioned but I applied to do my masters through the university of sydney and I got accepted yesterday afternoon but I didn't see it until now. I'm so happy & excited.