Night Shift

Hi @Kurra how has your day been?

I'm good @Former-Member ....🌷💜

Have sooo much to do that I can't consider it too much cos a panic can piggyback in on the thoughts .... so I sketch in a days plan and start working through the tick-list .... moving things around obstacles when they come up ....or pushing them forward to tomorrow, or the next day ....

If things aren't fitting together very well, I buy time with meal short-cuts, or "flash" showers every couple of days, that sort of thing ...

Biggest relief is that D3 can see the light at the end of the tunnel. She has stopped panicking and has started doing .... so day by day we're getting there ❣

WH is pretty settled with his regimen, so I'm just focussing on the next hour or two, really ....

Here if you want to chat ... just quiet company if you don't ....

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Really pleased D3 is going along nicely @Faith-and-Hope. That's been a close shave. I think I would have a heart attack if I saw your todo list right now. Not sure what a meal is right now, you may have to describe it😜😳

im OK as long as we don't talk about me. I've not been behaving myself 😔😏😠 say no more!

💐💜💐💜💐💜 @Former-Member ....

Meals come in tins when time is of an essence .... ever opened a can of corn and eaten it with a spoon .... ? Works for me ❣

Then there's tinned pea and ham soup .... or pumpkin .... my dragons like tomato soup .... and even D2 can make toasted cheese sandwiches in the toaster press ....

Sesame Wheat biscuits are a fave. Meal in a box ....

Yeah .... to-do list is impressive, I must say .... to be taken in baby steps only .... 🐾🐾🐾

yes, re corn and spoon, soup @Faith-and-Hope

Hi @Former-Member @Shaz51

Sorry just been on the phone to a girlfriend and trying to help her out.

Its actually quite a complicated story and it kinda came to a head tonight

I had a long day volunteering and then I went to my car and it would not start, I won't go into all the details of that but it needed to be towed away. So I decided to have it towed to Holden because it had been recalled and that way they can fix it there.

Before they came to collect the car, I had my parents come over to were I was volunteering. I just get really hurt by the way they talk to me. I tried to tell them about my day but everything revolves around them. Its like I am not good enough or deserve anything good in my life. Because I volunteer at wildlife Park, its really only my first full day. I was basically shown around again but took on more of a role and saw what my position entailed. Plus I got to see some of shows because thats part of my job etc to set up the sitting area, take photos for vistors etc.

He seem to be upset because I experienced something nice today and also because he would have to pay to see it (the shows). I am thinking if that was my daughter I would be happy for her to be getting out and trying to do something. I just can't follow him but I don't need to. The issues this evening were little but it shows how strained everything is and in reality I had to bring myself up. But in saying that I have been spoken like this all my life. It is like he doesn't accept me at all and he as never been encouaging towards me at all. I think I really need to go into hospital and to get the help I need and start putting myself first.

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope. You just put the first smile on my dial today. Am I right in thinking 7 more school days for D3. Really not long now. Mine sat his entry test today and all is good to start next term. I hope tomorrow sees you crossing many items off your list. 💜💐

Yes you do have to put yourself first @Former-Member. I am having to work hard with my parents and it often sucks the life out of me. Mostly they judge everything and often find the bad in everything. I can't do it anymore, now I understand more I can't do that anymore. I hate judging people and try to just accept everyone for who they are and wish everyone would do the same. Maybe it's time to put you first and when you are confident and more in control you can help them with the way you need to have them interact with you by teaching them what you need and how you need them to be for you. My therapist has been working on this with me. But first and foremost you need to be in a position where they won't drag you down so much. You've been doing so well @Former-Member. Keep going and if hospital helps then that's what you need because you deserve to keep making progress. I'd say don't give up on your relationship yet but work on you first. Thinking of you and sending hugs💜💐

Wow @Kurra you have heaps on your plate again. I'm so sorry. I'm ignorant but can you reject a VR, was thinking with the word voluntary in it maybe it's an option. I know how much work means to you both financially and as an outlet. I really hope work comes your way.

Shin splints are not much fun😠. Hopefully you can on top of it soon. Look after yourself 💜💐 stay 💪