Night Shift

Sounds great @Former-Member. I'm glad you've had some nice time out💜😊. Love your sense of humour💜 I'm not sure I've ever been invited to drive mine around before either. Is your daughter learning to drive? My son is hassling me for his first lesson. My nerves still haven't recovered from the first three yet. Oh well only one to go and then I guess I won't need to be 'invited' to go anywhere anymore 😜

lol @Former-Member ..er ..yeah,, all coming to a crunch here, trying be easy on self.Not too much detail, but I struggle to trust self. Not feeling physically strong atm, but had a bit of 'moment' re 'clarity' late last night (haha lack of sleep, empty stomach can lead to feeling 'clear' , and that can be a good .. re getting off own back as in physical/mental SH(?) re things of 'choice' and where it is all going and where it has got me..

Lounge is going to be a good place today, usual companion not invited. nor were they yest. no promises, just over it

Hi everyone.

I haven't met you yet @Former-Member, "hi". Are you new on here? Nice to meet you.

Haven't had much to say on here lately. I've been grieving regarding 2 really good friends. They used to live near me, but both of them have moved elsewhere. One of them is now in hospital dying from cancer and the other one has been diagnosed with dementia. Both of them aren't very old at all. So it was quite a shock to hear both those stories this week. The friend with cancer was going ok, then all of a sudden went downhill. She was still working this year and had no idea that anything was even wrong with her. Sorry for the sad news, just thought I'd mention what's going on in my world.

Started taking anti anxiety medication to cope with everything. I hate taking meds, but sometimes we need something. I know it's only temporary.

@utopia I researched more about EMDR and I now understand how it works. I had a "light bulb" moment, hehe! My appointment with the psychologist is Friday next week and I am really looking forward to it. I really think that it will help me.

I had a bit of a read of some of the messages on here and noticed that some of you are good gardeners. It's funny, any plant I buy, doesn't seem to survive, but when I get free cuttings, they survive.

We have already had an early dinner. Fettecene with lots of vegetables and a cheesy, mushroom sauce. It was actually nice. There's pancake mixture in the fridge to have later with cream and maple syrup.

That's my rave on for now.

What has everyone been up to today?

Have you had professional help in the past @TAB? Just wondering. About trusting self, that's one of my greatest contenders too. Really pleased that you are trying to take care of you, that usual companion sounds like it needs to stay uninvited as well. I'm playing a huge game of avoidance right now and that idea of chilling on the couch is very tempting she says typing this laying down in her bed but knowing she has to get her backside into gear and try to at least fix the toilet again. Be good, thinking of ya💜😊

@Former-Member I understand about not wanting to give driving lessons.

I tried giving my girl driving lessons, but I get way too anxious. I try to hide my anxiety with her when she's driving, but I freak out when a car comes near us, lol. I'm not sure I'll try again. She hasn't asked to drive for weeks, I accidentally freaked her out last time. Whoops!

..er.. few trips around carpark when empty,work out steering, stopping, going. Then send them to lessons. Serious. @Former-Member

---

@Teej wrote:

Have you had professional help in the past @TAB? Just wondering. About trusting self, that's one of my greatest contenders too. Really pleased that you are trying to take care of you, that usual companion sounds like it needs to stay uninvited as well. I'm playing a huge game of avoidance right now and that idea of chilling on the couch is very tempting she says typing this laying down in her bed but knowing she has to get her backside into gear and try to at least fix the toilet again. Be good, thinking of ya💜😊

---

yes, and in a few different, well similar forms maybe, some big successes, prob shoulda but hand up again years ago re signs most likey happening again soon @Former-Member

..not while fixing the toilet hopefully haha lol.. slipping into 3rd person, @Former-Member ? love it lol

@TAB I agree about the driving lessons with a driving school.

I've missed out on alot on here the past couple of days, but it sounds like you're not doing too good, @TAB. Sorry to hear. It's good that you have people to chat to on here.

Hi @Former-Member, yeah its not brilliant, but am quietly positive today. And thankyou