Night Shift

Of all the stupid things just my picture on here @TAB. I don't know what I was thinking. I was feeling ok. I actually faced and survived one of my biggest triggers today, haven't managed to come undone or over think it, it's the first time I've walked away unscathed and then I thought I should brighten my picture because the other one was so dark so for the last 2 hours I've been driving myself crazy trying to find the new 'me' picture. Seriously I think I'm just nuts sometimes. What about you? What's keeping you up?

Well, congrats @Former-Member re triggers.. er if it's not hurtful to self or others, think it's ok to be 'nuts'?..

maybe it's fallout re pic, sure you did well tho, and new pic is spacey ..nice..

re 'moi' .. am still in some sort of 'flux' ie not good, but can talk/listen/chat, well got up late today at very least, so staying up late, guess

Yeah probably fits @TAB. Think I'm a bit of a space cadet 😝 What is bugging you the most?

well, sleep well, you @Former-Member

You too @TAB. Catch ya tomorrow, hopefully you'll doze off soon 😊💜

oh, you boob @Former-Member cheered me up seeing you here unexpectedly anyways

..the bugs? everything? sorry just went down rabbit hole posting poet formerly known as .. lol

ok.here, now. my plan has failed/come unstuck, it was made up plan anyway.

ok. immediate. today. my back killing me, can't put a smile on my face can't even fake faking it.

not physically comfortable. Ill at ease(understandably maybe) yet all self created.

lost my 'game/brave face'

bed is only good place at moment, oh and shower,

just not confortable, not trusting myself which is sorta how I got to start of this..

it's been a bad 4 weeks or so well not good year, last 6 mths whatever, ok year had really good bits, just not much las t 6 mths shutup Tab well you asked. not trying to bring you down

..not fair to you re my post. Look after yourself and your boys. Eat pasta lol no reply necessary or expected. Sorry for dumping that @Former-Member

Morning @TAB .... 🙂

Hope you eventually got to sleep .... and that your back improves ....

Just a tip ... ignore if you want to .... helps to stabilise things if you can create at least some loose structure in your day .... create your own "have-to's" for the 24hrs ....

Body has "circadian rhythms", inner cycles linked to day / night light movement, seasons, eating, sleeping .....

If you can set meal hours .... maybe between a one to two hour span ....

shower time (at least a freshen up) .... clean teeth, etc

Bed time .... warm milk-based drink not coffee, close curtains, dim lights, lie down in bed, relax at least if not sleeping, gentle music, read, light TV if at all, avoid screens if you can ...

Get-up time .... open curtains, get up or at least sit / prop up, breakfast (kick-starts metabolism) stretch, morning radio on ...coffee .... walk ? .... find nature ? ....

Its working your body "machine" according to "manual" .... helps to stabilise and connect with daily life pattern .... makes next steps a bit of a natural flow-on .... scaffolding if you like ...

Hope it helps. Thinking of you. Have an okay day today .... ☀️☕️🍳🎧🌿📱⚖