Night Shift

Hi @Decadian, i hope things are calming down for you since the aniversary of your sons death, i know how difficult it must have been for you, you had such wonderful support from all the lovely people on the forum, i read a lot of the post to you supporting yu through this difficult time.

My life is ok, i am in love and still struggling keeping friends alive, it is so exhausting but they are such nice people they deserve to have someone who cares.

feeling flat tonight, i went to a cafe this afternoon and my hands where shaking so much the cup was reattling on the plate, everyone in the cafe looked at me, i was so humiliated, i felt so ashamed.

anyway, i hope life is treating you well, i think of you often along with my forumite friends.

Take care, be kind to yourself.

Jacques

Hi @Former-Member

Clearing my sinuses seems to be a full time job - using steam gives me relief for a short while but the wind carries pollens

I don't know about a lurgie - I visit the doctor a couple of times a week - he had a cold this week but I washed my hands as soon as I saw the nurse - they have plenty of that hand cleaning stuff there - I don't think I picked up anything there

I was a mess when I got there though - I walked down - I have great shoes that help and I like walking - but it was windy - and I thought about how excited I get when I start talking about things I learn watching docos - and I have seen a few beauties lately - I think I forget about my back pain when I am watching, reading about or talking about these - great stuff - let's work on it - easy way to over-come pain that way.

Thinking back - going to university through the worst time of my life did the same thing for me psychologlically - aw - I really hope I can apply the docos to my life and dealing with all sorts of things - how wonderful to read all of this on the internet

All the best - I hope you don't get a lurgie - just rest when you are tired and make sure you wash your hands as soon as possible when you get home, - I have some of that hand cleanser here too

Yes - I must be ready for my carer tomorrow - she is young and was nervous when she first started coming - and I asked one of the other people why this was - and it turns out some people are infernally picky about their cleaners - and I just think it's lovely that someone comes and vacuums and does the floors and changes my bed and all the other bits and pieces they do - I don't mind if they just hang the ironing on the door - it blows my mind to think about picky demanding people

I just like my people - I like talking to them - they love the things I tell them - I like hearing what they think - why be picky?

Well - I must keep my messages short tonight

All the best

Decadian

Hi @Jacques,

saying hi and sending hugs. Sending best wishes and strength to keep up all your good work and support for those you care so much about 💜😊

Hi @Jacques we haven't crossed paths before.. very brave of you sounds re rattling cup, and sorry it made you feel that way. Think have seen similar things somewhere across broken synapses..and my cup doesn't always do what it's told either, re anxiety, well poor lifestyle choices in my case maybe etc, I more often than not don't make it to the cafe in the first place

Hi again @Former-Member

Thanks for your message babe My mum didn't end up coming up she is sick atm and might actually go visit her tomorrow since I don't have anything planned. If I don't see her tomorrow I will probably see her next Monday.

I cooked up a really health dinner grilled salmon, sweet potato chips and steamed veggies. Anyway catch ya later

OMG @Former-Member. I'm coming to your house for tea😄 That sounds fantastic. Now I have a family again living with me meals are back to one pot meals to fill up my boys. Lots of rice and pasta again. I had forgotten how much the older one eats. I think I'm in for a rude shock when the oldest returns from overseas again. 3 young men to feed and two women all with different tastes in food -agggh. I hope your mum feels better and gets to visit you soon. 💜😊

Ive been meaning to ask how the increase in medication has gone too?

Hi @Jacques

I think of you as a special friend too @Jacques - I remember long convos with you and @Appleblossom when I first started here - I remember you were battling - and yet you helped me too - because I had yet to really open up

The anniversary of my son's death is now over a month in the past - how quickly the time has passed - I went to Canberra - and it was the day I came home - the anniversary - when I woke up feeling terrible and rang Life Line twice as I was getting ready to leave the hotel - but then - I didn't have any more trouble that day - beautiful day - I saw a glorious sun-set from the plane - something sureal - I guess people see sunsets from planes everyday but this was my turn

Yes - helping friends who are struggling is hard work - I admire you for doing that - this is something the universe knows about - it is not missed - believe me

So glad to catch up with you

Decadian

..ha @Former-Member.. er they could learn to cook maybe?, just a thought re differing tastes ..I was making cakes at 6 maybe, well, with help haha .. funny we used to eat stuff at that age that ten years later we fed to cats .. rib ends .. urghh well we did eat really well, had regular 'what the' nights as kids just had to eat the stuff good outweighed bad tho.. chili con carne and meat veg soup good 'one pot meals' pasta, rice ..ugh ..soz

Hey @plasmo. Have you been out much lately? Caught up with a friend or been walking? I am getting a quote to get my toilet replaced tomorrow, just though you should know😂 The piece I stuck on keeps coming off and it has become a real game of thrones to try to remember not to flush it lots right now😝😂

one pot meals workin a treat sounds re 'toilet destruction' @Former-Member haha soz ok it was boys