Night Shift

.. @Faith-and-Hopewell ya didn't have to, I woulda 'coughed' lol ..yeah minor modern primary school reading list version of a classic maybe lol. I enjoyed it at the time. prob a bit Famous Five ish, well with a message lol.

Still have a few penguins in bag from last airport journey, gonna surprise myself and see what I kept re baggage limits lol wel in next few days .. Mayor of Casterbridge and Robbery under Arms if like good read suggestions maybe

Aw @Former-Member

I had some phone calls like that with my mother - I used to be wrecked afterwards - and now I have reason to believe my mother regretted all that - but hey - no one goes where they are not appreciated without good reason and for the last couple of years of my mother's life I never went near her - but wrote often - and was never acknowledged.

So I doubt the situation is the same - but tough - for us - yes - I understand - it's some kind of nightmare

But you are not whinging - I know when people are whinging and you are not - I cried my eyes out at my mother's funeral - I think in my adult mind I knew we would never have an adult relationship - but somewhere deep inside I always hoped - but that never happened - so I get it

You had to change and suit yourself for your own health - understand that - and I wish I had been there with you to unload your feelings if you had wanted to - but you have had your say - and you are entitled to cry after you try and talk to your mother - and I can't imagine what it's like for you

It's not easy

Caring

Decadian

Hi again @Former-Member

I'm glad your girl had a good time - and interestingly - went to church tonight - something must be working

And I guess she is finding her own life - and that's good - but yes - quiet nights at home for you

Luckily for us - we have the internet

Decadian

.. @Decadianseen any gobbledocks out?.. got 280g pkt chips at the ready when you are ok BBQ? Chili? ..Chicken?? ..lol

Yes @utopia I am taking in my Doctor Who bag filled with books, my Nintendo DS, play dough and other things to keep my busy. I'll probably have sessions with the psychologist there to come up with a crisis intervention plan (I was working on it when I was in hospital last time). I'll be safe and I feel like being proactive in my recovery. There are workshops and classes on a variety of topics plus yoga and creative arts that I will attend.

My gf has been a massive help to me. Even today I had a panic attack and she was there for me, offering to take me to my place just to check on it (I had it in my head I had been broken in to) even though my place is on the opposite side of the city. She has been instrumental in me wanting to recover and not throw in the towel, I tell her that but still she worries.

I'll give her a kiss now.

@Former-Member Yes, I'm done with people pleasing, hehe! Funny thing is, it was never enough, I couldn't make them happy. The more I did for them. the more they expected.

@Decadian You sound like such a sweet person, I wish I could meet you in person and have a cuppa and chat. You are so understanding and kind, thankyou for caring.

You have had alot of hurt in your life too @Decadian. Do you feel that you are in a good place now?

I'm sorry to hear that you weren't able to be close to your mother, @Decadian. I hope that you are ok. Sending you a big hug.

@Faith-and-Hope I hope this week will be a good week for you and your daughter will be able to get to school without too much hassle.