Night Shift

Hi @Former-Member

Yes - I feel a lot better today - still I saw my doctor and yes - I am an allergy-prone person - sinus pressure

But yes - I want to eat all my vegies this week - steam them, soup them and salads - I do the boring part in the morning

I have had two professions - and they over-lapped - I often wonder how I did all of this

I did an accounting diploma at nightschool in my teens and this is not a brilliant qualification but I worked in accounts for years - and I was doing that when I was studying part time - my HSC and then an Honours Degree at university

And I was a private tutor during those years - so it was accounts all day and private students at night and the weekends and finally finished my degree and went to TAFE for a year and taught ESL - so my working life has been interesting

And yes - I am a musician - I play the piano and I was a guitarist - I had a car accident in 1986 and my left shoulder was pulled apart and that put paid to my playing guitar - and I tried to play my dds guitar and my shoulder pops out very easily so no - let's stick with the piano

So - I don't often ask these questions - what do you do? - what kind of work? - are you a musician?

I had to stop working and go onto the DSP - and now Age Pension - but as hard as things have been for me - I seem to land on my feet

Decadian

I don't mind being alone @TAB. I'm used to it. Just will be different my daughter not coming home tonight. She always comes home to sleep, lol. She's not far away and I know she'll get on facebook later to say goodnight. They're having a bonfire etc tonight. I wish I could have gone, lol. I guess I could have volunteered as a leader, but my daughter and friend only decided at the last minute to go, plus, it will be good for her to have a break away from me.

Allergies @Decadian, not fun at all for you. I don't have allergies where I live now, but I did when I lived down south. Now I have extreme sensitivities to alot of foods, but I'm working on that, trying to heal my gut. That's the main reason I try to eat healthy, so my gut has a chance to heal.

Anyway, you asked, what do I do.

I haven't been able to work for many years. PTSD became very bad during pregnancy 17 years ago. Before that I was very unwell, but somehow I managed to work full time. I never knew what it felt to be well and doctors weren't helpful.

I have had various jobs, secretary in the Premiers Department, followed by a completely different job, working for the Department of Childrens Services in a childrens home, followed by various office jobs and I also worked in child care. I tried working voluntary, last year, in office work. Was hoping to work a few mornings a week. But, once again, something triggered PTSD and I fell in a hole again. The great thing is (without saying too much) this guy I saw on the news, at that time, that triggered the PTSD was jailed for 20 years, such a relief to hear. It was other women who went to court, I didn't know this, but I am thankful that I didn't have to be involved, it would have been horrific.

So my main aim at present is to become stronger, healthier and fitter, so I don't fall in a hole so easily.

I don't play instruments, played a bit of piano and mandolin when I was young. We have lots of instruments , but I dont play any of them.

Totally agree @Faith-and-Hope Guilt is not good, well, I'm trying not to, I did over do it, lol. No one to share the chips with, hehe! the cake was delicious.

That's such a shame you can't play the guitar anymore @Decadian, gosh, your arm/shoulder must really hurt.

@Former-Member agree, and yeah I get it. No regrets tho

Wow @Faith-and-Hope

You would need a lot of faith and a lot of hope with your life - I am glad I stopped my family when I did - I had no choice actually -

It must be hard for D3 - and WH - be glad when he gets Dxd - but will that help? I hope so

With D3 - I did private tutoring - and there were some people paying a lot of money for a private tutor - me - to get their kids across the Big Divide - year 12 - but mostly it was rewarding

But there were kids who had problems that an English Teacher was not qualified for - and I know the heart break of the parents and the tension in the children - some as young as primary school - and no - I did not take them on - I could not - and hearing a bit about D3 I feel sorry because I would put myself out if it was working - and there were times when it was not and in good conscience I would not take money for something that was not working

I wonder though - does D3 want to continue with her education - my dd didn't want to do her HSC and so did an apprenticeship - and now she is a highly qualified horticulturist - it was worth the effort - have you discussed and apprenticeship with D3 - not all kids are academic - but you know the situation better

Your story is a bit like a soap opera from the outside - but I daresay it does not feel like that from the inside

Still wishing your the best

Decadian

Hi again @Former-Member

My shoulder can hurt - but I am careful with it - and most of the time it is okay

But the injury was serious - and I have had two surgeries - the next one will be a joint replacement and I am hoping I will pass my end-date before I need that

Thinking back across my life though - I miss so many of the things I did - but I did them - I had such a full life - and I was in a folk group and a muso for the Church Youth Group and drove all over Victoria with my friends going to concerts to play

So although all this was great and gone - I have wonderful memories - it must be sad when people cannot or do not - for whatever reason - take a chance with life's adventures when they are younger - I can enjoy my memories

btw - I love salt and vinegar chips - I think I have a few left - I try and spin the packet out for days - salt - you know - so I go the whole hog when I eat them

Now I can't get my mind off them

Decadian

Hi all again, back from coffee that turned into having dinner with my friends family, my second home. Anyway thanks for the hi @Former-Member and @Faith-and-Hope from before. Goodnight @Former-Member, must be warm where you are, still cold here. Been struggling to concentrate enough to read posts today so not up with much, probably need someone to draw me a picture. Not much to report on today that would be remotely interesting I'm afraid.