ChrisSenior Contributor
The loss of pet and lessons learned
A few weeks ago I lost my much loved cat. He was the light of my life, in many ways my everything. He made me laugh at his crazy antics. He made me feel safe where nothing else could. He seemed to know how I felt and how to make me feel better. His death was a real shock. He was hit by a car. The one time he escaped and wouldn't come back. Somehow he made his way home. How I will never know with a broken back.when I picked him up he just put his head in my arms as though to let me know he was safe in my arms. I was with him when he passed away. I felt devastated in shock I couldn't believe what had happened. Empty such terrible loss. Nearly four weeks on, everything is still in its place, I can't bring myself to move anything.
Well I've had a few times I've cried especially outside at the washing line. He would do such crazy things that put a smile on my face. And there was a special spot he liked to have. A nibble on the grass. Picking up his ashes was so hard. I was so pleased to have him back in my arms. For the next two weeks he slept with me cuddled up tight. I decided he needed a special box. I found one and had it engraved. I was able to put his ashes in it and his Color. I cut out two pictures of him and put them in the lid. When I open it I see him. It's getting a little easier. But I found myself looking at the rspca and pet rescue at other cats. I kept wondering why
The lesson I was trying to suppress my grief, something that I realised I had done before.
i didn't, don't want to feel the pain
I didn't want to feel the loss
but slowly I am learning to accept how I feel and its ok
i will get another cat sometime in the future, but for now I will let time pass.
