Trouble !

Oh @Teej ..... here and listening ..... or just here ......

Hugs n hugs ♥️

Is someone playing up or just crossed wires ? Only answer if you want to ......

I’m not sure what to say. I was in crisis today and did all the right things. Then tonight someone has said they are taking control of my life because I wasn’t capable. I asked so well to back off and let me go. I think I threatened them in the end with sh because that was all that has been going through my head all day. I am struggling so much with everything on and off again. I don’t think there will ever be a place where I’ll not create chaos.

Was that someone authorised @Teej, or a family member over-stepping boundaries ?

Or a professional over-stepping your boundaries ..... ?

I am so proud of how well you have been doing, and I just want to remind you the si and sh are your default modes when the waves are big, until you set newer and more positive default tracks ...... they are just thoughts ..... please put right away from you anything that could tempt you beyond thoughts ........

Hugs n more hugs ♥️

Family member @Faith-and-Hope. I was told 6 yrs of therapy had got me nowhere and it was time for them to take over.

Grrrr ...... 😡

Big girl pants on @Teej ...... draw yourself up to your full height ..... take a deep breath ..... and say "No thanks. After 6 years of therapy, I've got this !"

♥️

I tried so hard to say that @Faith-and-Hope. They tore down everything and left me in a place I needed to get away.

I think I would have done the same @Teej ..... a lot of what you're feeling is common to any feeling person (empath) so please don't assign it all automatically to mi issues. You're allowed to be human, and a woman ..... and that would have had me fully shaken and in tears ......

I got roasted by a therapist a couple of weeks ago and virtually called a menace ..... but their perspective has not aken in the full view ..... they were without evidence of claims I have made ...... and it seems others in my circle haven't validated my claims for reasons I cannot fathom at the moment ......

I have to live with that till the truth sticks its ugly head up into daylight, but it's crushing in the interim.

I had to have a big cry, a big whinge, seek support elsewhere, and regroup. Are you doing any of that or is it still too raw in the moment ?

I’m now sitting in the forest @Faith-and-Hope. I can’t believe you are going through all this. I’m so sorry that happened to you. It would have been crushing.

I don’t know which way is up just now again. I had found up but it feels like it was all fake now.

I so much want to reach in the back of my car and take out my stuff. I want to disappear in the forest but here I am writing here 😢😢😢😟😖