Hello?

Hi @Former-Member and @utopia. My ears are sore from listening to loud music. I barely slept at all last night. I'm exhausted and my psychiatrist isn't working today. There isn't much anyone can do, the public mental health team don't know me at all from a bar of soap, as I'm a private patient. My doctor is unreachable as Tuesday's is his day at the big veteran's hospital and his office is closed. I've run out of PRN meds due to the long weekend. Today will be the first day I can get some but because they make me tired, I am not allowed them until bedtime tonight. My wife says I am distant and cold towards her, I don't mean to be. I get like this I think when voices take over. I havent hardly slept in days when doesn't help.

Thank you @utopia. I managed to get in touch with my GP, who has my psychiatrist's mobile phone number. She has called him and is awaiting his response. She has suggested taking my PRN at about 4:30pm (my time) and settling in for the night. I like that idea.

I sat down and had a talk with my wife, I told her on our traffic light system, I am currently at red. She is doing all she can to help me, which is a very good thing. I told her I appreciate her help and love her very much. I think to be honest she needed to hear that. You see, she has BPD and sometimes needs assurance that everything is ok between us (which it is). She has suggested I could go for respite if needed (even if it is just a few days). I told her we'll see how I am tomorrow after hopefully a good rest tonight.

Not yet. Sometimes he doesn't answer his messages until the end of his shift at the hospital, which is about 6pm (but be rest assured, my GP has said if she doesn't hear from him in an hour, she will leave another message).

I think this hiccup has been caused by a number of cumulative factors. Running out of PRN medication, not enough sleep, the stress of the accident. Hopefully, with any luck, now I have PRN again and taking them 4:30pm, I will settle down and rest and de-stress. My voices will settle down. I don't think I am bad enough to go into hospital or anything, despite what my voices are saying and commanding me. I am still in the driver's seat @utopia.

Just popped back in to let you know my psychiatrist got onto me. He agreed with my GP to take my PRN early (which I have). He thinks all the culminating factors has led to this. He also offered hospital for a short stay if I needed it (which I don't think I do, but nice to know it's there).

Just woke up to have a meal. Headed back to bed soon. I don't feel quite as stressed now I've had a nap.