Hi All and thanks for your responses and concern @Former-Member, @Sans911 and @Former-Member.
I lost myself in a novel after posting yesterday and once I finished the book, managed to sleep for a few hours without night terrors which is good.
I am feeling better today as evidenced by my being out of bed and on-line.
I have set myself a couple of goals including going outside and tending to the animals, showering and washing my hair and trimming my nails. If I can achieve this I'll be satisfied.
On the 'not' side I am aiming not to scratch, pick or pull at my skin and hair. I also have a nasty rash on my chest and a few spots on my upper arms that I need to leave alone. I suffer from excoriation disorder which is triggered by anxiety. Teeth grinding, jaw clenching and chewing the inside of my mouth (that I am doing as I type) are also on my 'not' to do list.
I am going interstate on Wednesday. My sister in law has organised a surprise party for my brother's 60th birthday and my week long visit is also to be a surprise. My current crisis is largely a result of this - the requirement that I participate in life and interact with the outside world like a normal person.
I know that I will be able to pack and travel and also that I will enjoy the time with my brother and his family once I am there BUT I am stressing so much about it that I am almost paralysed. It is typical of me to prepare and arrive just in time. I just have to trust that I will manage on this occasion too. At the moment I can't imagine it but hey... one day at a time.